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2009-10-05T23:21:00.003+08:00

I miss blogging. Sorry for being on HIATUS for almost a month plus. I have been busy and lazy as alwez. I do have lotsa things to share but unfortunately, i was too lazy to even blog. Many things had happened during my 'silence' from blogging. Last few days, i just lost a friend. A friend who never brag about anything when you need help from him. A friend who would never say 'no' when you need urgent things to be done. A friend who i hardly know much about & had been friends for almost a year. A friend who i used to tease at work. A friend who will alwez be missed til' the end of our life. I have nuthing much to say about him since we don't reli know much abt each other. He was my colleague, he was only 22.. He left us for good last friday afta Juma'at prayers. He was such a good friend to all of us... We were all shocked with the news informed by his family. We left the office quite early and headed off to his house hoping to see him again for the very last time. But unfortunately, he was still in the hospital at that time. We couldn't wait much longer coz' we were informed dat he will be brought back home quite late. We were all very sad and can't believe that we are losing him for life.

"Sesungguhnya ALLAH lebih menyayangimu.. kami redha dengan pemergiannya.. semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.. AMIN......."

- In loving memories, Norihan Bin Hj Awang Damit. Al-fatihah.

No matter how young or old you are, death doesn't count age. Death doesn't gives notice. Death comes when its time. Subhahanallah.

Anyways, we were supposed to be celebrating our office raya celebration the next day. No matter what happened, we still have to carry on with the event. The event went well but yet.. how we wish he was there to celebrate it with us. But wat to do.. life goes on~ I spent the weekend with my familia and relatives at my Uncle Jidi's Open House. I was too tired i gez that i've fallen to sleep in my cousin's room. I drove back home alone around 1ish. Baik jua nde apa2.. kalat mata ku kalie ah..

Oh .. i wanted to post some pictures i took during Ramadhan and Raya but then i haven't got time to edit those photos. I will post em when i have time yeah. I know i should be updating you guys about my daily routine but seriously.. work has been hectic.. got lotsa things going on in my mind.. and i pretty much don't have the right words to blog about. Basically, my everyday is mostly all about work and its BORING i tell yah! You wouldnt want me to blog all about my work everyday huh.. hehehe..

Ramadhan

2009-08-23T13:07:00.005+08:00

Assalammualaikum,

Ramadhan has come again this year... ALHAMDULILLAH.. given the chance to experience ramadhan again. Ramadhan is all about patience and blessings. I hope Ramadhan this year to be utilised duin all good deeds & to be happy. There will be family gatherings as alwez.. 'terawih' prayers.. 'tedarus' and lots more. I love it when it comes to Ramadhan but sadly... again, this year we are celebrating puasa without our beloved grandpa. Usually every year , he will come over to break fast with us and perform terawih prayer at the mosque nearby. So all the aunts and uncles will come to gather at our place.

So yeah, its been two days i went for Terawih with AdeQ. First day, we went to Masjid Sultan Omar Ali Saifuddien @ BSB and lasnite we went terawih at Jamee. Coincidentally, we met Ka Jul these two days at two different mosques. Pandai ya stalking kami.. hehehe... and so i heard laznite that one of the ladies praying in Jamee lost her handbag. Astagafirullah al azim.. time org sembahyang pun ada kecurian. Afta terawih, we went to Easyway @ Qlap and there again.... we met Ka Jul. AHHAHA.. bukan stalking kah tu?? =p

Anyway, we went to McD for supper. Before we head home, we went cruising to BSB. As we were cruising around, there was actually one car is following us from behind. At first we didn't realize but after awhile noticing that they are following wherever we go, we got scared. Since we don't want them to track us down til we reach home, i decided to pull over and asked why. There's these two guys asking if we know them. Obviously, we never met them at all. We stopped by at one shop and had a chitchat. We never done this ever... GULP! So yeah.. i guess that wraps up my stories..

I just wanna wish every Muslims.... Selamat Berpuasa & Jangan Lupa Terawih... Hehe.. Thanks to ALLAH, i am back to be a happy person again. Alhamdulillah.. can't wait to see the couzies.. plans for today? NO PLANS AT ALL. Just wanna chill at home.

How you wish you could make life better ANYTIME YOU WANT!

2009-08-19T23:50:00.004+08:00

Assalammualaikum...

Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been busy with almost everything from work to attending 'tahlil', random visits to my tailor shop, family gatherings etc. So yeah, work has been bitchy to me lately.. I dunno why but I jus don't have that great mood anymore to even do my work. I don't enjoy it lately and its reli frustrating. I told my colleague about it and he felt the same. Something is not right with myself.. i have been feeling ultimately boring going to work. It reli sux but then... apart of me telling me not to give up.. what is actually affecting my mood rite now?? MashaALLAH, show me a sign pls~

Anyway, i went to KB laznite to meet up with my beloved best buddies Abe & Abg Saed. Its been awhile since i last met them. We met not long ago like last week during our 'tahlil' session @ the office but we didn't chill out after that. That is why i decided to chill out with them before Ramadhan comes. I know i will be very busy during Ramadhan since i have classes to attend, sports activities, terawih session, family gatherings, sungkai gatherings with the cousins & friends etc. Nuthin much in KB tho.. we went to simpur to try out the Ahad's burger and i loveeeeeeeeeeee it! Left KB around midnite and YES IT WAS a bit scarry to drive all alone from KB to BSB. Yikess.. syukuralhamdulillah i arrived home safely around 1ish. I know its crazy but damnnn.. it was a last minute plan.

I am DAMN BORED rite now.. i am going to put myself to sleep soon enuff! Oh yes, i met 'M' last week. We were supposed to watch movie together but unfortunately we missed the movie so i decided to just cruise around. What wonders me that nite was dat.. I dunno what i feel when he is there rite infront of my eyes... talking to me.. walking beside me.. smiling, laughing, eating bla bla bla. I am happy tho getting to meet him after for so long. The last time we met was last June. We have been good friends eversince but whenever i'm out with him, he alwez treat me special. It is what i've alwez wanted things to be.. sweet & romantic. Apart from that, I am thinking of someone else when he's with me. WHY? I wanted to tell him that i was feeling kinda down at that moment but i don't wanna spoil his mood since he was kinda enjoying his time with me and was very happy.

He had been so nice to me that nite and pretty much caring about my life. I updated him about my life and what i have been duin. I still miss him sometimes but after having a long thinking, i am better off just friends with him. He deserved to be wit someone else. He deserved to be happy.. i don't know whether he will be happy with me or not if we're back together. Better don't think about it. I am missing the other particular someone rite now. I know i should not feel this way but it's unavoidable. I tried to but he made me fall for him. I can't help it but i wanna take things easy. He didn't call or even text me like he used to anymore. And HE deserved to be happy too with someone else i guess. I can't tell him how i feel since we have nothing in between yet. I can pretty much say i'm too shy to tell him how i feel towards him. Frankly, I am not hoping for anything but I don't want him to change the way he treated me. He used to alwez be there for me during my day and nite. He used to call me almost everyday and now he stopped. Whenever i am not around, he would texted or even called me sometimes at least more den 4 times a day.

When you have someone who concerned about urself too much, you tend to feel that you're special. You're being loved. I do not need to be in a relationship to feel this love but I just want to be treated the way i've alwez been treated all this while. Day by day, I am trying to stay calm and trying so hard to control this feelings. I know i have a lot of friends around me but I don't know why.. HE CAN MAKE ME SAD JUST THINKING ABT HIM! Its so frustrating.....!!! I do not wish to be treated nicely at the first place but things just get overboard and now these feelings is getting more everyday. Sigh. But its alrite, Allah have better plans for us in the future and i believe that. I hope for this sadness to end. Its breaking my heart just thinking about it. I don't know if it is LOVE but hopefully, things can change.. I wanna be the girl who i used to be. The happy smiley girl... *pout*

Its Juz One of Those Days...

2009-08-12T00:22:00.003+08:00

When you're feeling sad and blue...
Its just one of those days.. When you feel you needed someone so bad..
Its just one of those days.. When things does not go the way you wanted..
Its just one of those days.. When you hope you could be around him again..
Its just one of those days.. When you realized you're too young to b sad...
Its just one of those days.. When you wish you can change things the way u wanted..
Its just one of those days.. When you wish you could have him...
Its just one of those days.. When you feel there is no one there to comfort you...
Its just one of those days.. When you feel you can't hide this feelings anymore..
Its just one of those days.. When you wish you could own the world...
Its just one of those days.. When you want ALLAH to give you more happiness...
Its just one of those days.. When you wish you are a MILLIONAIRE...
Its just one of those days.. When you feel you wanna get married & have babies..
Its just one of those days.. When you wish you could make everyone around you happy...
Its just one of those days.. When you hope ALLAH could grant you your wishes..
Its just one of those days.. When you wish you could turn back time to your happy moments...
Its just one of those days.. When you wish someone could make you feel the love...
Its just one of those days.. When you feel you want to have the best love ever...
Its just one of those days.. When you wish you could have a glimpse of heaven...

Its just one of those days..
When you wish you could never have this kinda feelings ever again...
But.. that would be impossible. Why?
Coz we're human beings.. NONE human beings in this world could ever escape from feeling blue once in awhile.. even ANIMALS have feelings too.. u can't see it but if you notice it animals do have feelings too.. contoh nya..

Ain't that cuteeeeeeeeeee??? Hehe..

and yet again, ITS JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS...

YOU WISH YOU COULD BE LOVED JUST THE WAY YOU WANTED IT TO BE.

Tell me the best medicine to put me to sleep EARLY!

2009-08-08T01:49:00.002+08:00

Its nearly 2am & I am not even sleepy yet even a bit. Since it is Saturday and that i am only working halfday, i don't mind staying up til late. I still can rest in the afternoon. Anyway, i am a bit upset tho coz' one of my colleagues has resigned. We have known for almost 4 years and he is a great companion. Its pretty sad not to be able to be working with him again since he has been one of my closest office mate. I know i will be seeing him again but it won't be as often as we alwez did. I wish him luck with his new job and hope we'll keep intouch always.

Sigh.

So anyway, its been awhile since i last met my girls. To me, 3 days not seeing each other felt like 3 years not seeing each other. Last few days, i had some misunderstanding with one of my bestfriends. It was a bitter conversation. It was nothing terrible tho' but i was dissappointed. Until today, it has affected my mood. I have mood swings.. at one moment i was happy den at one point, i become upset. Was it becoz i miss someone too? I don't know. Its a mixed feelings between friendship probs and other probs. I guess i have to chill a bit to ease things off. Haiyaahh.. I haven't been out for quite awhile with the girls. I miss them a LOT! I am feeling much better just staying at home, doing my thang, play around with the cute lil Baby Yasmien etc.

I miss those late nite hangouts with the girls ( I know for some ppl its not healthy but who cares ). Seriously we love those late nite hangouts eventho' it was nothing happening going on. Just late nite chit chats, reminiscing the old memories, cruising and lots more. I gez i enjoyed too much and its time to rest from doing all those activities at the time being. BUT dat does not mean i won't be out with the girls. We will still hang out, meet new ppl, healthy socialize & do anything dat bring good things to our life. You might never know who will be around you the next time you hangout somewhere. Baik jua aku ane inda gila chill.. lau inda seluruh cafe n restaurants kalie udah muka ku saja... HEHEHE.

Now, its alredi almost 3am and YET inda jua mau tdur mata ane. Bah tdur eee. OMIGOSH, i miss him. Not a bit but BERABIS! sedih jua ku tu.. whatever! I'm just gonna rest on my bed and force myself to sleep. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Salam Takziah

2009-08-07T01:25:00.003+08:00

Assalammualaikum..

I just came back from Tutong 30mins ago. It was sad to see my auntie for the very last time. Semoga rohnya di cucuri rahmat.. Amin~ She left a husband, two daughters and one son. She's my father's sister & she is only 48yrs old if i'm not mistaken. Mungkin Allah lebih menyayangi nya.. Al-fatihah. Its so sad to see my granny cried so hard and all my relatives were crying too. Condolence to my cousins for the death of their mother. My parents will be home late or probably sleep over at granny's. My cousin told me that she was fasting and dat she died in her sleep. The doctor informed that she had died 5 hrs ago before she was brought to the hospital. Her husband and children were fasting too and they thought she was just having a nap. But instead, she was actually gone for good. Kesian.. She will be buried first thing in the morning after subuh prayer. Semua yang hidup ke dunia akan pasti kembali kepadaNYA. Inalillahi wailahi rajiun...

Anyway, everything went well @ work. Alhamdulillah.. my mood was ok coz' i have my friends all around me. A friend who will alwez put a smile on my face even if its just a lame joke. Especially Ak. Irwana, he NEVER fails to make me laugh hard to all his nonsense, silly jokes & funny actions. When i think about it, life is too short to keep being sad all the time. As the saying goes, " Live Life To The Fullest ". But on other occasions, its not all the time you're alwez happy. There are times when you can get so depressed, sad, heartbroken, upset etc. OK, enuff! OMIGOSH.. its nearly 3am. I should get my beauty sleep... i know its DAMN LATE! But tell yah, i'm a LATE SLEEPER! Teehee....

I Mish You ♥21... x0x0

How worse can it get

2009-08-06T11:26:00.004+08:00

What can i say about today?

I am not working this morning and i'm dead bored. I woke up pretty late so i decided to just work in the afternoon. Plus, i don't have the mood to work. I have a lot of things going on in my mind that i do not wish to share it here. Its really affecting my mood and I hate it. Everything is just so messed up rite now.. In what other ways to stop thinking abt it?? To get very busy, i might stop thinking about everything. Sigh.

And to make this mood even worse, i am missing someone so much. Someone who you could express your feelings to but just wouldn't tell personally how much you are missing him. I didn't expect that i could miss him this much. Does he knows how much i am missing him? I don't think so. I guess i am starting to like him or mebe was it just lust? I DON'T KNOW. I'm reli confused rite now. I wanna overcome these feelings to not be too much. All i know now is that i miss him so much.

I gotta get ready to work.. hope nothing even worse happens today.. sighhhhhhh.

Update

2009-08-03T00:41:00.002+08:00

I should be sleeping by now but somehow i feel like updating my blog. I have been very busy these few days. so, HOW DID YOU SPEND YOUR WEEKEND? Saturday is my favourite day. Its the day i only work half day & get to spend my afternoon resting or doing some stuffs. I came back from work last saturday coz i was having discussions with the bosses. I ended up going back around 3ish. We talked about a lot of things such as work related, this year disaster ( swine flu, flood, fault electricity etc.) , religious matters & more. It was one great conversations that i had with the bosses. So i got home around 3 and my girlfriend AB all the way from KB texted me informing that she'll be going down to BSB. Its been quite awhile since we last met. I miss her a lot! We used to go out together alwez when she was still working here at BSB. Since she was posted to KB, we seldom meet & i miss her craziness a lot! I miss having her around me. =)

Met up at my place & we went straight to fetch Licia at her place. We went to have lunch at Country's Patch. I should give two thumbs up for the foods served. It was very mouth watering seeing the cakes displayed. AB sent us home around 6pm and will be seeing her again next weekend insyaALLAH. Since Baby Yasmien not home, i decided to go to my cousin to cook some pasta. We were watching Syurga Cinta together and it was a nice movie, indeed! We started cooking at 11pm, yess akhir kan?? We had no choice.. we got carried away watching that movie. It was a great nite spent with the Cousins, Sister & Licia. We were having a conversation in the kitchen and it ended around 2ish. We were mostly talking about religious stuffs and it is very important to keep learning about Islam. There are still a lot of things that i need to learn and so far ALHAMDULILLAH.. I am happy with my life.

I still remember the things my teacher used to tell us and wanted us to alwez remember is not to ever forget to perform our prayers. This is what she alwez tells us...

"Kenapa kalau kan main game kah, kan liat tv kah, kan baca buku mau kamu ber jam2 tapi kenapa bila kana suruh melakukan sembahyang atu payah2 kamu kan melakukan?"

"Sembahyang atu inda memerlukan seluruh waktu kamu atu.. ALLAH minta secubit masa kamu saja tu untuk melakukannya.."

"Sebagai pengajaran kamu cikgu ingatkan kalau bleh dengan hati yg ikhlas, jangan pernah lupa sembahyang.. ALLAH saja tempat kamu berdoa, tempat kamu minta di lindungi, tempat kamu bleh mengadu apa saja.. dan kepadaNYA jua kamu akan di kembalikan"

Thats what i only remember. To think of it.. i find it is logic and we just need 5 mins to perform our prayers. InsyaALLAH i will continue this never ending habit and i wish to learn more about ISLAM. It is actually quite interesting to learn about our religion.

I took this from someone who posted it in FB,

Assalamualaikum semua.

Cuba kira.....

1Ramadan pada tahun 2012 jatuh pada

20 July hari Jumaat,

jadi 3 August 2012 bersamaan

15 Ramadan jatuh juga hari Jumaat.

Sama dengan hadis nabi

pasal huru hara besa r yang akan jadi

pada tengah malam pertengahan bulan ramadan

iaitu hari jumaat 15 ramadan ,

di bumi ni yang akan mengejutkan semua

orang yang sedang tidur,

pasal satu suara yang amat dahsyat akan

kita dengar dekat langit, bukan kiamat tapi

huru hara tersebut

akan melenyapkan umat manusia di atas

muka bumi ini sebanyak 2/3,

yang tinggal

cuma 1/3 sahaja.

(yang NASA Amerika dok bagitau

pada 21-12-2012 planet X akan lintas dekat bumi ni)

Adakah kita semua ni tergolong dalam 1/3 itu.......

ALLAH sahaja maha mengetahui.. ......... ..

cuba kita tengok hadis nabi di bawah .

Nu'aim bin Hammad meriwayatkan dengan sanadnya bahwa Rasulullah saw. bersabda:
Bila telah muncul suara di bulan Ramadhan, maka akan terjadi huru-hara di bulan Syawwal...".

Kami bertanya: "Suara apakah, ya Rasulullah?"

Beliau menjawab: "Suara keras di pertengahan bulan Ramadhan, pada malam Jum'at,

akan muncul suara keras yang membangunkan orang tidur,

menjadikan orang yang berdiri jatuh terduduk, para gadis keluar dari pingitannya,

pada malam Juma'at di tahun terjadinya banyak gempa.

Jika kalian telah melaksanakan shalat Subuh pada hari Jum'at,

masuklah kalian ke dalam rumah kalian, tutuplah pintu-pintunya,

sumbatlah lubang-lubangnya, dan selimutilah diri kalian,

sumbatlah telinga kalian. Jika kalian merasakan adanya suara menggelegar,

maka bersujudlah kalian kepada Allah dan ucapkanlah:

"Mahasuci Al-Quddus, Mahasuci Al-Quddus,

Rabb kami Al-Quddus!",

karena barangsiapa melakukan hal itu akan selamat, tetapi barangsiapa

yang tidak melakukan hal itu akan binasa".

Subhahanallah.. whether it is true or not, we just hope and pray that everything will be alrite. AMIN..

Ermm.. ok, nuthin much happened today (Sunday). I woke up quite late.. and ♥21 called me around 12pm. I MISS HIM SO MUCH! so, i went out with my brother today.. we went to court furnishing and i bought a computer table. Den, we went to DQ's bandar & saw HIS's bike. Txted him and we met. ALHAMDULILLAH, we still friends eventho we had alredi broke up. We still remain good friends. Before that while waiting for him, there's this one lady was knocking on our window. She was telling me that she came from Sabah and dat she wanted to find a job here and that she was short of cash.. bla bla bla.. and asked if she i could give her $10 for her ride back to her place. So, i asked my brother to give her $10 but my brother was reluctant to give her the money. I insisted him to give that lady $10. After that when the girl left, my brother told me that the lady is a cheap liar. HAHA! I was fallen into her trap den. He told me dat she used to trick his fren too and his friend ended up giving her $10 too. HAHAHA. Well, its alrite.. sedakah saja tia... He even said i should not be too generous to people.. He asked me to be very careful next time.

I reached home around 8pm and Mom wanted me to accompany her to ICC to check out the booth for the upcoming expo. We are joining the expo and for sure you guys will be seeing me with siblings at one of the booth at the upcoming expo in ICC which will be held on the 5th til 9th August 2009. We will be selling clothes, women's accessories and more. Come and visit us at one of the booth. I'm not sure about the booth no. Btw, Baby Yasmien is back and I miss her terribly. Now that Baby Yasmien is home, the family is happy again. Hehe.. yes we reli love that adorable baby. Last but not least, i miss him too ♥21. I was worried he didn't call me the whole afternoon. He called me around 11pm just now and he just woke up. Kesian.. I miss him BERABISS! I am very happy that he called.. at least i get to hear his voice before i go to sleep. Hehe.... I'm so tired alredi and I'm sleepy. Nite2 everyone!

Kaya Roti?

2009-07-29T00:55:00.004+08:00

Most working people in Brunei is richer today... & u know why is that? Of cors, its PAYDAY. I've seen long queues in the bank, ATM & last but not least of corz, SUPERMARKET. I am sure everyone noticed that some people willing to leave the office during working hours just to go to the bank & withdraw their money. &&& why is it every payday people would spend more than necessary on shopping? It does not matter what kind of shopping they do but I've noticed MOST people here in Brunei loves spending more than savings. I don't know if they really do have savings or not but it seems like.. they don't do much savings. Why is it every payday they would spend more than enough when groceries shopping? From the way i've seen some people, i can say that they spent berabis macam kan untuk makan dua or tiga bulan. Padahal every month macam atu membali. Its not like i have anything against it but its just that dont u think we should spend wisely on our money? Sometimes there are other necessities which might be needed unpredictably? For instance, what if your car suddenly broke down & needs to be repaired? && which at that time you've spent most of your money already after paying bills, car loans, credit card etc. How can u even pay for repairing your car? And this is the MAIN PROBLEM, they willing to borrow from others or even worse sacrificed not to pay for the car loan at that particular month. Don't u think that you are burdening yourself with debts? I'm not saying i'm perfect. I've learned to do some savings for my future needs.

What i'm trying to say here.. "berbelanja lah dengan seadanya. Janganlah berlebihan dan membazir". Working with the finance company & meeting up with clients that has financial problems has taught me that it is VERY IMPORTANT to have some savings for future needs. Nobody in this world likes to end up having financial crisis. Money matters to everyone in this world. Some people can be so desperate that they end up doing "stupid things" when they don't have money at all. Some even commits suicide when they couldn't think of any other ways to pay their debts. It is a very crucial problem that we are facing here in Brunei. While surfing the net about ISLAM, i came across this "Rasullullah SAW tidak menggalakkan umatnya untuk berbelanja lebih dan berhutang berlebihan sampai tidak mampu untuk melangsainya."

TRUE! I sometimes spent more than i shud have & i ended up being broke at the end of the day. Ermm.. its getting late, i need my sleep. Hehe.. to be continued.

I'm BACK!

2009-07-26T03:30:00.003+08:00

Yipeee... yess, i'm back!

Straight to the point - IM DEAD BORED so i decided to change my layout. Its been like forever since i last posted my last entry. I've been busy plus lazy for the last few months. I miss my sister, Girl. I hope she's duin alrite in KL by herself. I hope she'll learn to be independent while being away from the familia. I know how she feels being away from the family for quite a long time. My sister went pursuing her studies & I really hope she will excel in her studies. I also hope she will study hard for her own good & make all of us proud of her. Seriously its not easy being away from the family and at the same time we need to cope with the new environment living alone without the family. When u got used to having ur siblings around you, u wud surely feel the deep impact being lonely for the first time. Sooner or later only by then you will get used to the new environment. It is just a matter of time trying to adapt to the new changes.

Anyway, it was my bestfriend Wendy's Birthday yesterday & i actually planned to meet up with the rest of the girls to celebrate Wendy's bday but too bad some of em couldn't make it. Its alrite.. we'll just meet up some other time ladies.. I MISS THEM SO MUCH! I've been thinking a lot of things these days and i don't know why i am being a heavy thinker lately. I used to not think too much about a certain matter and i can't help it but too think about it too much, wayyyy too much! BUT its okey.. InsyaALLAH things will go my way with the blessings from ALLAH SWT someday somehow. Mom planned to have breakfast later early morning and WHY AM I NOT SLEEPING YET ??! ITs freakin' 0351hrs rite now & I am still not sleepy. Sigh~

Its late & I need my sleep. I am just too lazy to post up some new recent pics of mine with my girls, familia & of cors beloved Baby Yasmien. Nantitah.. ngantukku udah. Toodles. x0x0

>>> Listening to Afgan - Bukan Cinta Biasa (gerenti tetdurku ne..I love this song!)

2009-03-11T14:54:00.004+08:00

I'm having lunch with my colleagues rite now. I'm relaxing and missing someone so much rite now. I'm dead bored!! Laznite i went out with shiq n joe. We went to Da'an cafe to chill and also discuss about the Menu to be introduced for the upcoming events which will be happening this month.

I hope she can manage everything well... I'm just not in da mood to do my work, i dunno why. Ok... I better end it here. Be back.....

Tired....

2009-03-03T00:11:00.002+08:00

Sleepy & Bored.

I MISS BLOGGING but today.... I just don't have any interesting stories to share.

Oh yes,

I MISS SOMEONE. =)

Gudnite.

Back!!!!!

2009-02-10T00:49:00.004+08:00

I miss blogging.. and i'm taking this opportunity to update my blog. Yes, ive been extremely busy plus... i was too lazy to update my blog. Nothing much reli going on during my absence blogging. I'm just too busy with my life plus tonite i'm not sleepy yet so why not update my blog... Hehehe... I feel like blogging abt what i felt and how am i feeling rite now..

Tell me guys, have u ever encounter the feelings losing someone but yet you still miss em so bad? I used to think how much i wanted to let him go for some reason and that i should've feel better when we officially broke up. If losing him is what ive alwez wish i have the guts to say then why am i missing him now? If he can accept the fact that i can move on without him then why am i feeling miserable rite now? These uncertain feelings affected my life...TOTALLY! Why is it whenever i think of him, ill cry and i dunno WHY! Its not right saying and expressing these kind of feelings on my blog but what the heck, it does not have to be about my everyday stories all the time right? =) and rite now... I CANT SLEEP, I MISS HIM SO BAD!!

I've been very close to my bestfriend Izzah lately and we share the same situation. We've been texting each other almost everyday with her saucy stories.. vice versa. Thats what I've alwez needed, BESTFRIENDS to be there for me ALWEZ.. FAMILY to support me.. and FRIENDS to entertain my life. I should be grateful to be blessed with wonderful people around me. WHY should i frown when my life is not over yet? I should be optimist in life so that all good things come my way. I have a great career, supportive family, bestfriends & friends, stable life, loving parents , caring relatives, amazing bosses... my life is great but one thing lacking, someone to love which I should not be worrying so much. Its true what my bestfriends told me.. If i never let go, i will never move on... I never tot of that until tonite, I've realized I've been blessed with all these wonderful things happened in my life so far. Syukur Alhamdulillah... Honestly, I am grateful with what i have right now. My parents and siblings have been supporting me with whatever im doing. I should not let them down. I should aim what i've alwez wanted. Achieving my dreams in life is the most crucial part in my life that i should not waste my life feeling miserable. Agree ? =)

Random.

2009-01-14T23:34:00.003+08:00

Its been a hell of a busy week !!! I was fully occupied since early week. OMG!
I've been sleeping late these days.
I've been waking up late these days.
I came to work LATE!

AND.... I was too tired to update my blog for the past few days. Apologize for that! Its been a busy week for me be it at work or handling business. I've been making myself occupied from Morning til late nite almost everyday. I haven't got time to chill out with my girls & boys. Its been awhile since i last met my gurls. I miss them so much and WILL ALWEZ DO! I'm gonna set up a date with the girls if I have free time. At this point, i seriously have nothing special to talk about. I just feel like updating my blog. I haven't got time to post some overdue pictures. I will upload dem some other time.

OH YES! I haven't been updating you guys about my NY celebration. Well, we had BBQ + Karaoke-ing @ Abg Saed's Place. I had fun, they had fun, WE HAD FUN! We even dance til' 3am & we just don't care if the loud music annoyed the neighbour next door. Hehe.. all in all, we enjoyed our NY celebration. We also celebrate ABg Alai's Bday that nite. We wrapped the event with karaoke-ing session til almost 5am. Arrived home almost Subuh prayers. Berabis wah kami bejalan ah.. over~ Hehehe...

So anyway, I officially opened up a restaurant on the 11th January 2009. As what my parents always advised me, I need to be patient in Business. Do not expect more but receive whatever we earn with sincere and patience. I must say its not easy AT ALL! I've been running my 1st business for almost 3mths now and all i can say is Business is GOOD but when it is end of the month, I have rent and salary to pay so sometimes TO BE HONEST, i feel annoyed and worried that I could not afford to accomplish my obligations. BUT, Syukur Alhamdulillah so far i have no problem paying the rent and salary. As long as the income earn is sufficient to pay the rent den I'M MORE THAN HAPPY!

AS a newbie, i still have lots to learn. The 2nd business I'm operating is different from the 1st and YES, it has always been my dream to run these kinds of BUSINESS and now that it happened, i feel blessed. All i need is to be patient running the business. I hope with the income earn from the business, i will be able to help my family when they desperately need help. Most of my relatives are business people so, InsyaALLAH i won't have problem rectifying any matters that might occur in the future. Being young and hardworking is what I wanted my younger siblings to BE. I wanted them to lead their life to a better future and that is STUDY HARD & SMART at the same time. I hope i can help my siblings to pursue their dreams . InsyaALLAH.. if ada rezeki, i wouldnt mind at all as long as they are happy. I love my family more than anything in this world. YUP I RELI DO!

Hmmm....

My car broke down and it is now resting at the workshop. I wanted to sell it off but at the same time, I LOVE MY CAR and i know i will miss 'BABY' terribly. I remember when my car broke down and that it needed to be towed to the workshop, I was deeply crushed. I dunno why but somehow i reli love that car so much and I MISS HER! Its been 3 days without her here at home. My mom advised me to sell since it alwez caused a lot of money to fix it. BUT..... i dunno what to say to her. Sooner or later, i have to let it go & will buy me a new car. At this moment, i just dunno if i wanted to sell or not. SIGH. Do i hafto sell it? Sigh. Mom insisted me to buy new car instead of fixing the car over and over again. Canakan ne? Bingung ku eh. Pokoknya my decision APA SAJALAH. OK, Im off to bed now. Sleepy alredi......I MISS BABY BM!!! =(

Quality Time Spent!

2009-01-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

Lets recap the remaining few days i left before it hits 2009. My last post was made on the 25th Dec 2008. Well, before i move on... I would like to wish my beloved brother FADHIL....

"HAPPY BELATED B'DAY"

May what comes ahead will bring more happiness and success in life. I love you dearly. Be good always.

Next..... 27th Dec 2008

Occasion : Costume Party

I have nothing much to say. It was indeed a very one memorable nite. Eventho' the party was not what i expected but yet with friends and families around, I enjoyed my nite dancing and partying like there's no tomorrow. Hehehe.. terlebih sudah!~ We didn't go home straight away after that but infact we went to The Arch to chill for awhile. At that time, we witnessed a garbage car got into an accident. The driver must have fallen asleep or drunk? Who knows..

Below are the pictures taken that nite.

Control Macho eh... org belakang ah... =p~

My Bestfriend♥ AdeQ & Yours Truly♥

Ladies & Gentlemen

US with bunch of new friends

My Beloved Friends

My Sister w/ Her Bestfriends

Love em'

Can't stop posing~

My Brothers♥, Bestfriends♥ & Best Buddies♥.

The Happy US.

My Bestest Buddies♥. ROCK YAW!

Us with the ugliest man alive. HAHAHA Jgn Marah Abg Saed.

We spent almost 2 hrs taking pictures after the party. How exhausted but FUN indeed.. I spent my Saturday enjoying my time with friends and family. I feel so HAPPY!

Basically 28th til' 30th were pretty hectic since it was after govt's bonus payroll. Got busy as alwez & so, i took the opportunity to go Miri with my sister and friends. The next day, I went to Miri with my sister & friends. We departed from Brunei around 4ish coz' we decided to stay overnight. We arrived in Miri around 6ish & went to Imperial Hotel to check-in. Lucky for us there is still rooms available or else we might end up staying at cheap dirty hotel which I'm not very fond staying at that kind of environment. Cheap is good but DIRTY? NO WAY MAYN!!
All i can say my trip to MIRI was superb fun!! I'm glad i spent my quality time enjoying myself. I thank you guys for making me happy & i love you.

Our activities in Miri were Bowling, Watched Thai Horror Movie (GROST!), Reflexology & Went to the funfair before heading off back to Brunei. We only stayed for one nite coz' some of us need to get back to work the following day. BORING! As usual, it was VERY PACKED at the Malaysia & Brunei Immigration post. We arrived safe in Brunei close to Midnite. I didn't go back straight home tho'. We continued chilling at aDeQ's place before heading home. It was one tiring journey but yet... we had so much fun. We even won few gifts at the funfair. Wanna see the pictures we took during my trip to Miri? Hehe.. sekadar~

Ada seimbas? LOL.

My Bestfriend♥ AdeQ & Yours Truly♥

They pose with style...

1st.....

2nd....

3rd... Sexy Much? I meant... Sexy Teeth? Hehehe...

Look how happy we were that time. Hahaha.. Pacah~

We gave names for these cute dolls but I forgot their names.. Mine is Booboo & BumBum. Hehehe....

To be continued... *yawning*

Hippies or Disneys?

2008-12-26T00:40:00.002+08:00

In related to that...
I just don't know what to decide...
Hippies or disney's characters?
Its way too late to decide..
becoz' the party is TOMORROW! Yes MAN! Tomorrow buiiii~

HAHAHA!

I'm left with multiple choices. I could not decide what costume should i present & wear! I have few in mind tho'. I need to make a choice by tomorrow so i can get it done super A.S.A.P! Alrite, I'm gonna sort that out by tomorrow. Oh yes, I haven't receive the pictures we took @ Empire during our stay. It is still with Ameen & He haven't give or email it to me yet. HMPH! Bila bui? Batah ey~

Oh, I haven't continue my stories yet as I shud have been after the last post. Well, there was a phonecall from the boys early in the morning. We went for swimming as early as 7ish til' 10am+. We enjoyed our time and was soaking ourself in the Jacuzzi. Hehe... FUN! FUN! FUN! We checked out at close to 1pm. After that, we went to Khaz Corner @ Sengkurong. Without any plans, we decided to try out the Fish Spa Massage at the very last minute. The place is located just next to TK Restaurant in Gadong 1st Floor. We can actually feel the Doctor Fish trying to eat our feet. Hehe..

Then, G Saed sent me home. I was actually planned to go to Nonong's house but unfortunately i fell to sleep. When i woke up, it was raining heavily & so the plan was cancelled. Spent the whole nite just relaxing. Basically, I spent my weekends with my friends & I reli enjoyed it. I'm looking forward for the next chillout session with my friends.

Anyway.... lets just skipped the remaining days that i left coz' nuthin much reli happened. Before i continue i would like to wish my Uncle Yaakub a 'HAPPY BDAY'. May Allah bless you.... Wishing you all the best with your life. Love you & have fun! And to everyone, MERRY XMAS PEOPLE!

Going to sleep now. x0x0

Mildly Happy

2008-12-21T01:49:00.003+08:00

Everyone is busy with their own thang~ I on the other hand is feeling sleepy but yet, there's still a few of my frens chilling here at our room. I just feel like updating my blog. Basically, i had a very tiring day. First off, went to work as usual. Since its Saturday, we only work half day. It was our cascade briefing today at the bunker's lounge @ empire. We started off with our lunch at 1pm den we attended our briefing which lasted for almost 5 hrs. We had our hi-tea break in between the briefing.

So, we checked in to the hotel at 3ish. Was fully occupied the whole day with all the briefing & was surely enjoying our stay for today. We went for swimming til 7pm+. We were reli hungry after that. Den, we decided to go to KTM to have our dinner. It was raining heavily at that time and I can't even see the road clearly. We didnt waste much time as it was raining heavily. We went back to the hotel immediately and was spending the night just enjoying our time. G Saed & I went to Nasz's room. It was like a club in his room with all those loud music & bunch of other friends dancing including him. We ended up dancing too! Hehehe... It was fun indeed.

Got reli tired after dat & went back straight to me room. Bunch of frens came by including my brothers and their friends. I still can't sleep yet coz' I'm waiting for Nonong. She's still out with Atol buying us some foods coz' the people here are starving! I certainly enjoyed my stay with my friends. My aunty is on the west side of the building and I alredi went there to meet my lovely couzies. It was Baby Wanie's 3rd B'day on the 18th. Her parents just celebrated her bday today in their room. Other Uncles & Aunties came by to chill til' late. I'm looking forward for tomorrow's event. I heard tomorrow is TAIB's Family Day Sunday Splash. No wonder most of the rooms here were fully occupied. Lucky we managed to book 4 rooms just for us. Our room is located at the pool view east side 3rd floor. Its not much of a pool view anyway as the trees were blocking our view. I so need some sleep coz' i need to wake up early tomorrow & swim date with the boys & lil couzies.

Ahmin is here so hopefully we'll capture some beautiful pictures with his camera. Loving it! Ok, im off to bed. To be continued fo' sure......

Congrats Wendy, LOVE YOU!

2008-12-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling bored rite now. All my brothers went abroad including my eldest sister. So, im left with my younger sister & my parents. Had a chit chat with my parents and sister awhile ago. And now im in my room just feel like updating my blog. But, my lil cousins Fayez & Fuad are here so at least i dont feel lonely. I'm used to having a lot of people around in my house. Everyone seems to enjoy their times travelling while I'm stuck with lotsa work! Sigh. Bilatah ku belayar ne? I misss misss misss travelling tho.

The partay~ that my sister will be organizing will be in less than 3 weeks. I haven't even think of any fancy costume to wear that nite. I have something in mind previously but i think its not suitable to wear that nite. Still thinking anything simple and fancy.

Skip that, lets talk abt something else. Well, ive been leaving this blog un-updated. hehehe is there such words? who cares ! SO, yesterday i had my inlieu. Wendy fetched me at work and so we went to BIBD bank to cash out some money. Then, we went to Express since Wendy was feeling hungry. After that, we went home. Had a rest before going out with the girls laznite.

Left home around 8ish, fetched the girls and went off to buy some beads before going to Dune Cafe. It was our first time.. and there we met our old friends whom happened to be the chefs. Its a great place to hangout.. very chill & indeed comfy. Everywhere i go when it is with my girls, its alwez fun! Even just chilling talking abt old stories.. old memories... reminiscing every funny stories.. our ups and downs.. its alwez funny! very....

We spent almost 2 hrs+ i think coz' we hafto be home early since My bestfren WENDY will be having her engagement the next day. I'm so happy for her.. she finally found someone. I love her so much and I hope she will be happy til' da day she get married. I miss my girls alredi. One very embarassing moment happened was that my bestfriend Kitty broke a glass. HAHAHAHA! damn.. all eyes on us. We didn't hafto pay for the broken glass tho but then still... we feel bad. Hehehe...

We were laughing in the car and still feeling so embarassed with the incident happened. So, send my girls off before heading home. I miss them so much. Oh yeah, Licia still not home yet. I miss u babe. Come back soon! And also Jessie.. she'll be back next week. I'm missing you girls. Ok, its getting late. Off to bed now.

Tagged.

2008-12-08T01:24:00.002+08:00

I'm bored.
Haven't managed to reply any tagged by Salwa & Ayen.
Since I have nothing to do & not even sleepy, I'm gonna reply their tags.

#1 Tagged by Salwa.

Babe, I don't actually understand the questions. Was it referring to You & I or My Boyfriend & I? hehehe... SO, i'll skipped tat. =p

#2 Tagged by Ayen.

RULES
#1 Do the “Letter MEME”.
#2 Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged.
#3 Copy the “How-to” Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog):
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but __1__. I think I realised it when/on __2__3__ and I saw __4__5__. I’m sure you’re __6__ enough to understand __7__.. I’m returning __8__ to you, but I’ll keep __9__ as a memory. You should also know that I __10__11__. __12__.

Love, (your name).

P/S: You’re so lifeless, __13__ (the name of person who tagged you).

1. What’s the colour of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’ll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn’t match
Grey - You’re a pervert
Yellow - I’m selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You’re a loser
Other - I’m in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women’s clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What’s the colour of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What’s the colour of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United’s goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I’ve felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn’t exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we’re cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I’m allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Over joyous - That I’m open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What’s the colour of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - How awful I’ve felt
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David’s tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always thought of
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favourite activity when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks – Ugly pig
Foosball – Silly duck
Shopping – french kisser
Indulging for food – Cranky banana
Movies – Smelly Armpits
Snacks – Horny Wolf
Snooker – Tiny nipples
Bowling – Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities – Vain pot
Having a long talk – Nose picker
Taking pictures – Dumb bitch
Other – Burn yourself

Dear Ayen:
I don’t really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realised it when I tripped on sesame seeds at the mental hospital and I ignore the crazy monk. I’m sure you’re emotional enough to understand how awful i’ve felt. I’m returning your old lottery coupon to you, but I’ll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that never openly mocked Oprah Winfrey imitations best regards.

Love, Mellicious.

P/S: You’re so lifeless, Nose Picker!

Hahaha.. now i'm done. Gila.

Tagged :
a) Salwa
b) Sis Girl
c) Sis Liyana
d) Saee 2412
e) Simply Izzah

Unplanned.

2008-12-07T11:32:00.002+08:00

Holidays until TOMORROW only.

Planned to go Miri today but some and myself unable to go today. My relatives will be helding some family gathering at Nana's. I was bored laznite. I have nothing to do. I spent the nite watching DVDs, chatting to some friends, went to the Shop & went shopping a bit with my cousins Fayez. I have nothing special to do to kill my boredom. I wonder why i was not reading my book huh? I should keep myself occupied by finishing the book that i bought laztime. Frankly speaking, whenever i read that book it makes me think so much more abt facts of life. JUst after i stopped reading, i feel great and not even thinking even a single thing abt him but infact it makes me think even more positive than i used to. I reli need to finish reading the book uh.

So anyway, my auntie just called & wants to bring me out to buy some stuffs. What is my plan for today?? Lets see.

1.) Need to buy things for the Shop.
2.) Buy some gifts for the function later.
3.) Attend the Family Gathering.
4.) Off to the Beach. My sister is having BBQ picnic. InsyaALLAH.
5.) Sleep early? Iakah? HEHE! Kan ke Miri bah.

Thats just it i think.. ok, my auntie is coming so i have to get ready. I'll continue later...

Errmmm....

2008-12-06T00:06:00.002+08:00

Time : 0021hrs
Location : My Room

Currently listening to Craig David feat. Lynnsha - Walking Away. Its raining and i feel so cold. Everytime when it rains, it makes me think of someone. Someone i dearly miss so damn much. Sigh. Anyway, my bestfren Licia texted me informing dat she'll be going off to KK for few days which means I won't be meeting her on my til' next week. BORING!! I don't know about my other girls. Tomorrow, Jeedz wants me to come over to some party but i don't know if im coming. Frankly, I do not really fancy going to any parties except birthday party hehehe.. I know its cool and fun especially when we are still young but somehow, I'm just not interested so i guess i might come or i might not. I'll see how. I miss my Girls so much. Waiting for the next girls nite out. I miss my Boys too. Its been awhile since I last chill out with my Boys. Last Wednesday, we had cousins night. Our theme for the occasion was "Halloween". I didn't prepare anything for the night. I was actually wanting to go to buy some Halloween costumes but den i didn't have time so obviously i don't look scary at all. Haha! But... my lil cousins for sure look scary den us adults. It was fun.. I enjoyed the nite. We finished kinda early before midnite coz' it was raining. All in all, FUN! I'll post u some pictures of the events some other time yeah.

Yesterday, I went out with Jessie after work. We went for steaks coz she was craving for it plus she misses her xboyfren so much. Eating lamb steak makes her think of her xboyfren so much. I'm glad i was there to comfort her so she won't be very sad. I know deep down her heart she must be very hurt. I wish i could understand how she feels right now but then I am not god, for sure i don't know how she reli felt. After that, we went to Amri's house. Was chilling at his place till 11ish. Its been 6 years since we last met him. WOAH! Its his birthday anyway.. so, the family had a little gathering and too bad we didn't buy him any prezzies. On our way home, we talked a lot. She was still talking about her life whereas I just listen coz' I can see from her face that she is very sad. As i reached home, I don't know why i suddenly think of him. The silence in my room makes me think of him more. I tried not to but I can't help it. I should admit that I AM MISSING HIM SO MUCH !! OMG!! SIGH !!!!!!

And now, I am still missing him terribly. =(

Today, nothing much reli happened. I woke up a bit late but Alhamdulillah i came to work on time. Seriously, for now... I need my Girls. I miss them so much. Since its gonna be a two days holiday.. I'm thinking of bringing the girls out. Khai wanted to bring me to Miri but it has not been confirmed yet. I really wanna go since its gonna be holiday til' Monday. Yaye! I so wanna get out to somewhere. Puhleeaseeee... I hope we will accomplish the plan since I won't be able to take any leave til next year. I will be very busy this month FOR SURE!!! Boss will be on leave starting the 9th until weekend. Again, BUSY! super BUSY! So yes, tomorrow is the party? Should I or should I not? See how. I haven't got any plans besides Miri or KK. I am really bored and wouldn't want to spend the holidays working which I usually did. Boring. Hehe... ok, to be continued... =)

Like it?

2008-12-03T01:14:00.003+08:00

Like it? feel free to ask.

I have nothing much to say for this post.

I am getting sleepy.

oh btw, I'm having a cousins nite tomorrow at my couz fara's crib.

I hope i'll enjoy my moments spent with the couzies.

I'm off to bed.

I miss you so much.
I wish you knew.
I really want to be with you.
Its all just 'HISTORY'.

Boringku.

2008-11-30T23:45:00.006+08:00

Its been a week since my last entry. I haven't reli got the urge to update me bloggg. I have been very busy everyday with work of course. I was very stressful with work lately. I'm just not satisfied with my performance. Some people may not notice how stressful i was but then.... the fact is IM VERY STRESSFUL! But now i'm ok.. a bit! I will only be OK once the month-end meeting is over which it will be TOMORROW, OMG! Actually i dont reli fancy talking much about my work. Ok, im just gonna tell u details of what i have been doing all week.

Last Sunday i woke up reli early. I woke up as early as 6ish and was ready for a jog date with AdeQ, Malek & GJay. Fetched AdeQ around 7ish and went straight to Tasek Lama. Its been awhile since my last workout and dat xplains why i gain weight very fast. Eating too much, less work out = FATS! Hahaha.. We went up the hills and we managed to kick it off after two rounds of brisk-walking and slow jog. MAN... i felt too heavy to climb up the hills but Alhamdulillah i have my friends supporting me. Thanks guys! I LOVE YA'LL! After that, we had a quick rest and went to some mamak stall to have a drink. I was extremely tired and was actually thinking to have a rest afta that. Unfortunately, my aunt asked me out for a trip to the beach. As much as i wanted to resist but at the same time i couldn't say 'No'. Before heading off to the beach, we fetched the spice girls 1st. It was one tiring day but yet it was fun as alwez. Arrived in Bandar at around 8ish. Very tired indeed. Took a bath and went straight to bed to take a rest. Hehe..

It was Monday, the journey where i started to get busy again since it is coming towards end of the month. I was staying for overtime the whole week. Went home quite late as usual and it was the most stressful week. Nothin much reli happened. I was too busy working and i havent reli got time to even meet my cousin Fara. Over jua tu aku ah... busy banar ku yo! I am speechless right now.. I reli dun have anything interesting to share. I'm thinking of changing my layout but i haven't find anything fancy yet. Its December already.. so much memories happened thru out the year. I miss everything that has been happening in my life for the past few months. I am closing the books of 2008 and starting a new chapter of life in 2009. Its too early to say whats my revolutions and I hope next year will be a better year for me. I am getting sleepy alredi. I'll continue some other time.

Then You Were Here, Now You Are Gone.
I Miss Your Presence,
But I Guess I Need To Move On.

♥ hurts, its life.

2008-11-23T01:41:00.002+08:00

Its 1:41am, I just came back from Nonong's. As usual, we had our gossips talking til 1ish. Gsaed & Dauz cracked me up with their silly action while we were playing games. Talur banar. HAHAHA. I reli wanted to stay abit longer but too bad i will be having a jog date with my babe, Izzah. Atupun if jadi, krg nde tebangun. LOL. Malik & GJay decided to tag along 2morow.. Hehe.. For sure, I will be complaining if they're gonna walk fast and leaving me behind. Its getting late and I need to sleep.

SO yeah, I have been thinking thoroughly about my feelings. I kept thinking about him nowadays and the reason? I DON'T KNOW WHY! The more i think about him, The more I am missing him deeply. Its not healthy for me and its hurting me. I should be thinking the other situation by keeping faith to myself that I can move on slowly and its not gonna be easy. I need to keep myself occupied with whatever I wish to do. For a start, having a date with my babe, Izzah tomorrow. Mudahan jadi ah. And, in the afternoon my girls & I decided to go for dance class. Whatever keeps us closer and together, I'M UP FOR IT girls! Probably I will be asking my cousins to tag along if they want to. I have few plans tomorrow tho. I need to finish up some work too which means I will be in the office on a SUNDAY! Maybe.. that is if im not l-a-z-y or t-i-r-e-d.

Missing you so much ♥ PanDaQu.
When its time, I'll look back &
think... was it worth it?
I ♥ U, it ends here. =)
Thanks ♥

SO much it hurts!

2008-11-22T19:24:00.002+08:00

Its 7:27pm, here i am blogging teplang. What to do?! I have no plans. My girls are busy with their own things. I'll for sure be heading to Nonong's later i guess. I should or else i'll go nuts staying all day at home. I wanted to drive off to Nana's but then at the same time, i'm feeling a bit lazy. SHEESH! Why should i be thinking about him? Its normal i know but then its hurting my feelings even more thinking abt him. And the fact that when i went out last friday with Alimah, I seems to see a lot VW cars which is similar to his. Banciku. I just can't get over it easily.. it takes time of corz! or mebe this heartbreaking songs are making me even thinking more abt it? u think so? ENUFF SAID!

Anyway, I wanted to post some long overdue pictures but then I have not finish editting the pictures. Hmm.. My blog looks naked without pictures, aint it? Oh yeah, my couzie rara is back in town and we need to do some catching up girl! Heheh.. Cheezbox again? Hehe.. I'm so craving for that chocolate and now i forgot wat its called! SHRUGS! So, I shud be getting my ass off now! I need to do something before heading off to Nonong's. I'll b bck later.

I miss what we had,
I miss everything abt u,
I know dis feelings is uncertainty,
I dont know if i ever want u again,
It hurts so bad dat u just aint care.

Seriously,, r u bored?

2008-11-21T01:08:00.002+08:00

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You bored?

You Are Very Approachable

You can talk to anyone, and it shows. People are eager to start conversations with you.

You are open and friendly. You are willing to connect with almost anyone.

While it's great to be approachable, there is such a thing as too approachable.

Eventually someone will try to take advantage of you. Don't be afraid to say no or end an awkward conversation.

Are You Approachable?

You Are 72% Ready to Be a Parent

You are mostly ready to be a parent, though you could be better prepared.

If you had a kid tomorrow, things might be difficult at first - but you could pull through.

You don't have to be an ideal parent, but if your life was in better order, it would help.

Make yourself a plan of how you'll raise and pay for a kid. You'll feel better if you have all your ducks in a row.

If you're already a parent, you're probably doing a good job.

Even if things aren't perfect, you're making the best of it.

Are You Ready to Be a Parent?

The Ultimate Color Test

When you are at peace, you are:

Deeply stable

When you are moved to act, you are:

Giving and warm

When you are inspired, you are:

Spiritual and humble

When your life is perfectly balanced, you are:

Totally in the moment

Your life's purpose is:

To live a passionate life

The Ultimate Color Test

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life.

But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it.

Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career.

Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

I am seriously bored & I reli don't have any other better things to do. So, i ended up surfing for some quizzes to keep me entertain. Anyway, my nana (grandma) has been admitted to the Hospital since Wednesday. I hope she gets well soon, AMIN! Oh yeah, I met one good looking superb cute DOCTOR! I think he is a doctor.. I didn't ask but I saw him discussing with the senior doctors and I couldn't see his name tag clearly. Erm, nothing special about it. Just hoping Nana get well soon.. Amin................

I miss him today, deep SIGH!

Truth Hurts, Sometimes.

2008-11-18T00:31:00.004+08:00

Basically, I had a rough and lazy Monday. I was not reli in the mood doing my work. I was having the Monday symptoms : Lazy, Boring, Rough, Blur etc. YOU NAME IT! Khai was on MC just now.. so, AGAIN.. it makes the day even more boring. You know why? Usually he's the one i will turn to every morning.. talking some rubbish gossips. GET WELL SOON MAN! I'm glad my Babes, Alimah & Raja Bual were there to spice up the BORING MONDAY. So yeah, nothing much reli happened.

Today, my colleague told me a shattering news that he saw him with someone new. I reli don't understand what i feel when he spilled out the beans. I was at the same time feeling sad, shock, confuse & happy too. Its a mixed feelings which I don't know how to describe. I'm glad i have lots of caring friends around to cheer me up. I'm glad they willing to listen and help me get thru with this heart-rending moments. I should be happy to hear the news but it turned out sour which i don't expect it can actually ripped my heart apart. I wish i have the guts to say it out to him about how i feel but I am afraid he wouldn't listen. Sometimes I admit I have been hiding my feelings by not telling him how much I miss him. I tried telling him several times but all i get is just a simply reply telling me he felt the same but does he reli meant it? or just saying it to make me feel better?

In this moment of sadness, all i need is my bestfriends. This is the moment where we need each other the most. We turned to each other during our happy and sad moments. But sometimes, we also need to work out our matter on our own. I miss my girls so much. I'm speechless.. i dunno what else to say. Mebe I should sleep.. u think so? So anyway, my girls planned to attend dance class this week and I hope they will make it happen. Jangan angin bertiup kencang tapi nada bunyi. Hehehe.. u know what i mean girls! LOL. Oh.... I'm glad I'll be having my halfday tomorrow. At least I can rest and call someone to fix my aircond. Seriously, I can't stand a week without any aircond. One more thing, the lights in my bathroom went on fault. What a disaster! I have few plans for tomorrow. I'm still not sure but I will be spending my afternoon looking after my shop. Its my everyday routine to stop by at my shop before I go back home. There were customers just now when I went there and I was kind enough to give some discounts. Lucky for her I was there. Pls drop by again MISS. Hehe.. i was excited to entertain the customers. Anyway, getting sleepy alredi. Toodles, nitey nite.

Antam ler

2008-11-14T01:28:00.005+08:00

Have you guys watch this movie? Its Madagascar The Movie 2. I watched it with my friends just now. I had a great laugh, it was damn hilarious. It reli cracked me up. I should recommend you guys to watch it. I reli enjoyed the movie for sure. I give it a thumbs up for this movie. HAHAHAHA.. siuk siuk, inda rugi.

Anyway, I got nothing interesting to share wit u guys. Work as usual, nothing exciting about it. I went home abit early today. Licia came to my house around 8ish and after that we went straight to the Mall to catch up a movie. Luckily it was not packed in Gadong, no long queue. After the movie, Licia & I went to WyWy Sengkurong and had our supper. I reached home around 1ish and ended up "NOT SLEEPY". So, i took the opportunity to update something in my blog. It has been dead for few days coz' i seriously have nothing exciting to share with you guys. Excuse me for being quiet for the past few days. Hehe...

Ohhh.. lookie lookie wat i found on the internet....

I'm eyeing on these stuffs. I wonder if they can sell it online. I'm still checking on it. If they can provide worldwide express mailing door-2-door service, i'd surely order it online. AS LONG AS ITS SAFE & THE GOODS ARE GENUINE! But... the prices are killing me. If only its available in Brunei, I would surely grab my hands on some of the things above especially the SHOES! Oh, thats not the only thing i found on the internet. I also found some very eye-catchy stuffs which i adore. Want some more? Hehehe...

I still got lots to upload. I found very attractive stuffs on the net but somehow, im not sure if they provide worldwide express mail order. So tempting.... huhu! I'm getting sleepy alredi.. as always, will update when I got things to share. Toodles~

Free Advert

2008-11-08T02:44:00.004+08:00

PROMOTION FOR NEWLY OPENED TAILOR SHOP

Baju Kurong (Biasa)..............................................promotion B$12.00

Baju Kurong Chiffon.............................................promotion B$22.00

Baju Fesyen (Biasa)...............promotion B$25.00 – B$50.00

Baju Fesyen Chiffon............promotion B$30.00 – B$80.00

Promotion ends: 30^th November 2008

Located @

Unit 9, Ground Floor, Block A, Lot 11620, Kg. Mata-Mata, Gadong BE1718, BSB, Negara Brunei Darussalam.

(Next to Bread Culture or Standard Insurance)

**** Opens from 9a.m to 9:30pm

As you can see, i took the advantage to make free advertisement in promoting the newly opened tailor shop. I haven't taken any pictures on the clothes made @ the tailor shop tho'. InsyaALLAH, if RAJIN ada tah ku promote lagi. Hehehe.. feel free to come just to check it out. Thank you.

L♥ve, I MISH YOU!

2008-11-08T02:22:00.002+08:00

Its less than two months til' new year and the most anticipating moment that ive been waiting for is L♥ve's birthday. We had made some plans earlier but unfortunately i wont be celebrating it with L♥ve this year due to "i'd-rather-keep-it-2-myself" reason. I reli do miss you L♥ve. I'm sorry i couldn't celebrate it with you, you know the reason why. I just hope u will have a great time on your not so special day, dats wat u alwez told me. I miss everything about you, my munchkin♥.

Anyway, Its been two nights straight Jessie went out with me. Lastnite, we were supposed to go to Cheezbox but it was alredi late when we arrived in Gadong. We had no idea where to head to. We ended chilling at CZ Qlap. We went home around 1ish. Reli feeling tired right now but I feel like blogging abit. I had dinner at KFC Batu Satu with my brother just now. Went home around 10ish and waited for Jessie to fetch me. We went to Taurean D' Arch and was chilling til 2ish. I know its late and dat i needed to go to work the next day but she needed a companion, dats y i reli dont mind staying up late to cheer her up. Oh yeah, its adeq birthday celebration tomorrow n i havent even buy anything for her yet. Cuaiiii ey! I'm gonna buy it tomorrow with Jessie. I have no idea what to buy for her, any suggestion? GSTRING mau deq? HAHA.

Tired la... i think i need to sleep. I'll be updating my stories again tomorrow, INSYAALLAH with one condition, dat is if IM NOT TIRED. I hope i'll be enjoying my time tomorrow especially when the girls around. WOAHH! I miss them alredi. =)

HAPPY BDAY GIRLS!

2008-11-05T00:14:00.007+08:00

Its past midnite & I've just missed greeting my fren Feeza a special bday. I know its never too late to wish so imma just gonna give a shout out to my fren Feeza.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dedication : Thanks for the invitation & I apologize tat i cudn't come to ur bday celebration. I just hope u had a great time just now. May Allah bless u in everything.. hope u'll get a job pretty soon or gudluck on ur Masters if u are intending to take pretty soon. Enjoy another chapter of your life, lurve you x0x0.

and............... a big shout out to my bestfriend IZZAH ~

Dedication : I'm glad we're still bestfriends until today. Been friends for almost 11 years for now & I hope we will still stay bestfriends til' the rest of our life. You've been a great companion and has alwez lots of old jokes to reminisce and new jokes to share with. We've shared our teenage life together and we have so many memories. I hope you enjoy your bday. You know how much i love you & hope to see u on Saturday. Btw, FLUFFY DUDE will be around rite? HAHAHA.. I love you gf!

I've got nuthin much to share wit u guys today.

I hope my Grandma gets well soon. ((HUGS))

Ok, FYI my aunt & family are back for good this time & I will get to see my cute lil couzies Mayez, Majidah & Muiz quite often. I just met them yesterday and boy..... they are SO ADORABLE but NOTY! Hehehe.. No matter what, they are growing up and getting so cute & adorable. I love them dearly and I would love to cuddle lil cute Muiz & Mayez again.. I so miss them so much! And, I'm in the mode of missing every of my cousins. I miss Emma, Fara, Deelah, My Spice Girls, The Toyols & The Rascals. I haven't reli get to spend much time with them after Raya & I'm up for another Family Gatherings. I wanted to travel to meet the couzies but too bad I'm still stuck with the loaded work & not in the right timing to apply for any leave. ARGH! Moreover, I AM IN NEED OF WARM SOOTHING BODY MASSAGE, puhlease~

GRANDMA, get well soon. I LOVE YOU.

2008-11-03T02:09:00.003+08:00

I just came back from Ira's place few minutes ago. Sent Nonong home before going back home. I had a great time and at least i had somethin to do on my Sunday. I woke up pretty late just now.. it was almost 1am. EYIIIKEEES! Mebe i was too tired. I spent my Saturday nite visiting my grandma at JPMC before i went to Nonong's place. Kesian nini.. Hopefully she gets well soon, AMIN! I was shocked wen my brother told me grandma was admitted to the Hospital. She just came back from Singapore onda 29th and all of a sudden, she got sick last Saturday. She was reli weak & just now, she can't even move her right leg and arm. I just hope she'll be fine amin....

Back to my story, I was up til 2am @ Nonong's place last Saturday. We had so much talking, laughing and sharing some stories. Even without doing anything fun, it does makes me feel comfy & had so much things to talk about with Ira, Nonong, Dauz & Abg Saed. I actually wanted to see Liverpool match but then, i was too carried away with the talking & laughing with them. When i got home, i went online for a while & wanted to update my story but since nothing fancy going on, i decided to NOT BLOG about my weekend. I'm just worried about me grandma.. kesian nini ey. I went to visit her again just now and all me aunties & uncles were there. In the afternoon, licia came over to my place & i brought her along to Ira's. We had Karaoke and GIRL, thanks for the foods... as usual aku ane kelaparan, nyaman YO! The loving crowds Nonong, Dauz, Ira's & family, Abg Saed, Cel were there to lighten up our karaoke session. Everyone participated singing few songs.. and siuk bah.. nada yang malu2.

I was at Ira's since 6ish & left her place for awhile to send licia home at around 8ish. Then, dropped by to grandma's den back to Ira's. Ended our karaoke at 1ish.. brabis wah kami nyanyi ah. Even with the small crowds, i was much entertained. Thanks again Ira for the foods & teh tarik. Aku kanyang bangets... HEHEHE. Then, off.... to HOME SWEET HOME! Plus, my lil sis texted me saying that my Dad asked me to go home coz' it was alredi late. OK, now here i am and its alredi 2:35am. SASAK MUCH, inda dapat tdur teplang. So, im just gonna do the usual trick, watch tv til i fall to sleep. && one more thing, I MISS YOU berabis! You know who u are.. call me puhlease.. i'm reli sorry. Aytes, nitey nites!

I hate this part right here

2008-10-31T23:36:00.003+08:00

The world slows down 
But my heart beats fast right now 
I know this is the part 
Where the end starts 

I can't take it any longer 
Thought that we were stronger 
All we do is linger 
Slipping through my fingers 
I don't wanna try now 
All that's left's goodbye to 
Find a way that I can tell you 
I hate this part right here 
I hate this part right here 
I just can't take your tears 
I hate this part right here

I'm in love with Pussycat Dolls's new single.

I reli like it and it has been playing on my mp3 repeating-ly.

I have nothing much to say.. all i can say, i misss HIM!!! I'm off to bed.

~ I'm listening to Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part Right Here ~

Condolences to Hudson's family.

2008-10-29T01:12:00.003+08:00

I am freaking cold rite now.. its 1:15am & I can't sleep. I just finished watching Desperate Housewives and now im tuning on channel 712. I came across the heartbreaking news of Jennifer Hudson's family. Her mother and brother was found dead earlier & now.. her nephew. How could some people be so cruel for killing a seven years old kid? Kesian banar. Her nephew has disappeared last 3 days & they were hoping for him to be returned but sadly, he was dead instead. A 7 years old kid?? Oh c'mon, HOW COULD SOME PEOPLE KILL SUCH AN INNOCENT BOY?! I couldn't imagine the fear he was bearing when he was abducted. He must be reli scared and cried. *Sigh...

I watched the news on E! just now. So, here i am still not sleepy and freaking coldddddd. I reli have nothing much to update. Erm, i miss him. Yes, you know who-u-are.. *Double Sigh... as what i usually says to my bestfriends "ehhh jangantah dipikirkan.." yes, malasku pikirkan. Anyway, when i was at work juz now.. Osaka asked me what will i do if i earn $800 million.. and i answered, i would build my dream house, buy my dream car, pamper myself with making my wishes comes true. YES, FOR SURE! I don't care if some of you might think that i'm selfish but hey, what would you do if you reli earn that multi-million dollars? OMG! I can't imagine how my life would be with $800 million dollars! Once everything achieved, my families won't be forgotten coz' they comes 1st in my life. I won't pamper them much coz' seriously, money can blind you when you're not careful. No matter how much you earn, life means nothing without happiness & love. Whatever makes my family happy, I will be happy too. I know Osaka & I were carried away with dreams & fantasies but wouldn't you want it to be reality in life? OHHHH I WISH! But dreaming is cheap, we need to work hard to earn a million.

I thought about it & how i wish it can be true someday, somehow. Hahaha.. I'm not expecting much but dreaming is the best way to feel that fantasies are real. Oh, im watching Forbes entertainment news right now and its about Top 20 women celebrities. WOAH, siuk! I can only dream but i'm still too far to reach that one dream that I don't know if i can reach someday, somehow. MILLIONAIRES? BILLIONAIRES? "jangan tamak, syukur dengan apa ada nya" hehehe.. yes i'm dedicating that line for myself. I should keep that in mind. If it does comes true, syukur kepada Ilahi. OK, i might get too over the board, i gez i shud stop here. Toodles.

Aku makan saja...

2008-10-26T22:18:00.010+08:00

Sigh.. awu makan saja ku eh. Yes, I was supposed to at least cut down on some carbs & less sugar coz' i think im gaining like shiznitt!!! I just can't resist the oh-so-lip-smacking foods served during my visit to SyiQen's crib. She invited my bestfriends & I for her small gathering open house. I thought she invited some other people for her open house.. rupanya kami saja, kesian jua tu. THANKSS SYIQS!!!! I tell u people... the foods she cooked was ohhhhh NYAMANLICIOUS, banar... inda ku menipu. My Saturday nite was mostly spent chilling at her place. It was cold thru out the nite. Siukk jua ah malam di Kg. Ayer. I was with my two bestfriends aDeQ & Wenzy. Too bad Jessie & Licia can't come with us. Even if it was just the few of us but to be frank, I had a great time. We left her place at around 12ish & went cruising around at Gdg & Qlap after that. Nothing special, macam biasa! Overall, My girls & I enjoyed our time. Its alwez been fun mingling with old friends. So yeah, I'd love to pay a visit to her place again anytime soon with my girls of course. I'm loving it big time.. i know some people might call it 'sekadar' or 'sakai' but I SUKA!

Yours Truly, SyiQen. Nyaman SyiQs masakan mu... yummz!!

My Bestfriends, My Rythm of life, My pillars of strength, My Sisters.. I LURVE YOU GIRLS!

Im getting tired alredi, im off to bed. x0x0

Loving you big time.

2008-10-23T23:07:00.005+08:00

So i managed to upload the pictures during my raya which also means I just finished resizing and editing the pictures. During my raya holidays, i didn't feel like occupying myself infront of the computer to edit the pictures coz' i didn't want to waste the holidays I had. Well, i'm gonna be working overtime probably until end of this month. I will be continuing my unfinished work. Nothing much happened at work today. After work ard 5pm..NaKaNishi, Archiekinz703 & I went to Qlap to check out the piano lesson at Muzette. We were entertained by the pianist when she played one song for us. NaKaNisHi & I got very interested to join in the club. It has been my interest since long time ago that i wanted to learn playing piano & this time im gonna make it happen, InsyaAllah. SO yeah, i'm gonna learn the codes & surely will enjoy it.

Anyway, I decided to open my shop next friday. I can't wait any longer coz' paying the rent sometimes kills me. If i could've save it, i wud've already enjoy my money. But i can't give up now since i have been spending too much on the shop. I won't be telling much about it tho' but i'm happy that I'm just gonna open it soon. I just hope my worker can handle it while i'm working. I will be visiting the shop everyday after work coz' its not far from my house. I will be promoting it once i get done with the flyers, atupun if i rajin. Hehehe.. Or mebe i will just recommend it to some of my friends so for a start its gonna be tough and i hafto deal with it. I'm still learning about the business and my mom will help me. Syukur Alhamdulillah my mom will help me cope with this business. Even if she's busy with her current business but as always.. a loving mother will always help her child in everything.

I love my family and I won't give up on this business that I'm going to run. As what mom always told me, its never easy at first but we just hafto be strong and patience dealing with any business. I hope i can help my mom in return when this business succeed. My family are the most valuable gifts from Allah and everything that i will earn i hope i can help them to fulfil their desire or dreams in the future. What i always hope for is for my younger siblings to be successful in life no matter in their studies or work. I love them with all my heart & I hope they know that i'm willing to sacrifice my hopes to study just to give them the opportunity to fulfil their dreams. I may not be successful in studying but I know i can be successful if i work hard.

OK, enuff with all that emotional feelings. HAR HAR HAR. Well, today.. im missing someone. Someone who i wish can be here for me whenever i need him. Someone who i've been longing to tell me how much he loves me. I miss everything about him. I don't know why i miss him.. I reli do miss him. I really wanted to see him but im scared. Im scared he might say things that i dont want to hear. Im scared he might thinks that i needed him only when Im feeling down. I wanted to call him but again.. im scared. I miss him today.. and yesterday and... maybe tomorrow. I want him but im scared of what he might think of me. Does he still loves me? or.. he hates me? I miss you ♥712.

I didnt lie when i said i miss you.. I didnt lie when i said i still do love you.. I didnt lie when i said i wanted you to be with me at that moment, i want you to be around me when i needed you. Im sorry for the things ive said that might hurt you. I love you, i still do. I hope you'll forgive me. I miss you ♥712..

I'll end here before i get too emotional. Im in the state of missing someone so much. I wish you feel the same for me. Its never too late to tell that u still do.. its hurts you even more if you hide your feelings from me.
You know how much i ♥ you PaNDaQu.

missing you so much baby... *hugs*

yawning!

2008-10-19T03:07:00.003+08:00

As i promised, i was gonna post the pictures from Raya but due to overload work & laziness.. i only managed to upload it today. Hehehe... These two pictures taken during Malik & G.Jayz open house were taken last Saturday the 11th. I went raya-ing with my colleagues & brother. On the same day, i had my 2nd open house celebration especially just for my friends. I had a great time.... INDEED! I'm just too speechless to express the excitements i had!

However, this pictures below were taken at my youngest brother's fren open house. I basically had nowhere to go & my brother asked me to accompany him. Without any hesitation, i agreed to join + i was DAMN BORED & was still in my raya mood.

I really have nothing much to say and I'm kinda tired rite now. I just came back from Abg Saed's house awhile ago. Haven't got enuff sleep yet & I still have more plans for tomorrow. Luckily i'm still on holiday til' Monday. Dun make me think about work.. I wanna rest my mind from work. Its not that im hating it but im just starting to love my holidays! Ok toodles, im off to bed. *sleepy*

Holiday starts...

2008-10-18T01:08:00.007+08:00

Indeed......

HAHA! My leave starts today.. but ill be back to work by Tuesday... I shud've ask for a week... menyesal ku jua. OH WELL, forget it! I'm gonna use my holiday wisely by keeping myself busy with many things. The best thing is... I CAN SLEEP LATE AND WAKE UP WHENEVER I WANT! Banar..... Dats the most best moment i like whenever its holiday. So i spent my day by waking up around 10am. Had shower roughly 30mins after that. Fetched Alimah around 12ish den off to Amsarra @ Qlap. Had buffet for lunch & as usual, they served great foods! Kenyang eh.. Alhamdulillah. Then, i drove off to Giant to survey some 'Kain'. As much as i wanted to resist the much temptation, i just couldn't able to hold on & hide my desire. I ended up buying two 'kains'. Bini2 tah banar.... as what most of my guy friends usually said. HAHA..canatah jua.. lawa banar.. karang abis tia.. shashapon!

Next visit, we decided to check out some new DVDs at Komunis Gadong. I ended buying 7 DVDs movie.. and I hope this DVDs can keep me occupied when I'll get reli bored at home. So, nothing much reli happened today. I went beraya-ing with my siblings and bestfriend Licia just now. We managed to visit only three houses & that is becoz' we were invited to an open house of theirs. I stayed a bit longer until midnite at my bestfriend Kitty's house. How i wish, the other bestfriends were there too coz' we had a lot of things to talk about. Anyway, my parents sleptover at Miri & I need to wake up early tomorrow to help out at the canteen. I'm gonna bring my brothers & bestfriend licia to help out. And in the afternoon, I need to attend our Office Raya Celebration. I'll be busy tomorrow by continuing going out after Isya' prayers or Maghrib prayers to visit some friends again. See i told you, i haven't got enough of Raya. I'm still in the mood of Raya baby!!! Woohooo.. exaggerating much? HAHA i know..! I'm of to bed now, thanks for reading my boring post y'all. HEhehe..

Assalammualaikum.....

Temporarily on Hiatus

2008-10-14T00:32:00.005+08:00

Yes....

I decided to put on hiatus temporarily changing the layout. I have been editting some of the codings and this is how it turned out. I guess im pretty much satisfied with what i did. I haven't reli got the urge to change the layout but somehow i was bored & decided to change the layout. Its alredi the 13th Days of Raya & I'm still feeling the Raya Mood. My Boss and Khairil is on leave until next week so i was left alone with piles of work! *Sigh* I was nervous tho' having to handle everything on my own. But came to think of it, i guess its a challenge for me whether i could handle it alone or not. First day w/out them is not bad at all.. So far, So good ALHAMDULILLAH... *wish me luck on everything* Hopefully everything goes smoothly til' they'll be back next week. I'll be starting taking my leave this friday which means I have to get all done by Friday. Aduhh.. banyak banar kan d buat.. tolong ku! =(

It seems that towards the end, they have been lots of open houses & just now we went to Ka Bibie's new house @ Tasek Meradun for lunch. I was with Nasz, Ka Hjh Jul, Danial & Amalul. I didnt manage to take pictures coz' i forgot to bring my camera along. Cuaiii~ Hehehe.. My colleagues have been asking pictures from me which i havent posted it yet. Sorry guys.. busy ku yo! Kamu pun tau kalie ah.. well, i have been busy since Morning & got lots to do. I was supposed to stay for overtime but then Syiqen kidnapped me from office after 5pm. Her intention was to submit her CV only. Since she was bored to death *hehehe* she asked if i wanted to hangout with her for awhile. Ok.. since its been awhile, i decided to leave my work & went out with her. We fetched Licia then crashed to DeQsKie's house & surprised her. The four of us went out & had dinner at Au Lait for the first time ever. Yes its the 1st time ever the 3 of us went out with SyiQen.

SyiQen is our friend back in secondary school. We have been classmates since Form 1 til' 3 but never got reli close or hangout elsewhere. We had a great time chilling til' 9pm. Bangas rasaku.. pakai uniform lagi *Hehehe* After that, she sent us home and she offered to go visiting some friends this Saturday. I'm looking forward for this weekend since i will probably be fully occupied the whole day all by my friends. =) Adding to that, did i mention we will be having Raya Office celebration this Saturday? Yipeee...! Another fun celebration... makan lagi~ ADUH! Hehe....

Here are some of the pictures taken during my Raya. It has been long overdue kept in my laptop. HAHA! I'm just gonna post some coz' it might take F O R E V E R to post all....

♥♥My Beloved Families♥♥

thats all for tonite ya'll...

to be continued....

Raya Open House

2008-10-08T02:10:00.002+08:00

Due to few demands from friends, i decided to take the opportunity to update my blog since im not sleepie yet even if its alredi 2:12am for god's sake! I have been very busy visiting people, entertaining some relatives or friends that came over to my place for Raya. I haven't been visiting my friends or colleagues.

To my friends who had invited me to their raya's open house,

I'm sorry guys i couldn't make it coz' i was very busy with relatives, other friends & colleagues that came by to my house. I'll be visiting you guys probably next week.. I'm still in my raya mood tho'. Btw, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin

Back to my raya stories, we had raya's open house last Sunday. I was awaken by my dad around 10ish asking me to entertain the guests that came. It took me hours to get ready as that I was taking too much time curling my hair. When i went down to check on the guests that came, i was surprised to see our living rooms were packed with lots of friends, relatives, others that came by. Seriously, there were nonstop guests since mid-noon and we siblings & my parents hafto keep re-filling the foods. It goes on until' midnite. Thanks to G helmy, Max, Dex, Yusran, Malik & G Saed that came by to my house. I had fun and was reli tired after that. I haven't invite any of my friends for the next open house yet, im still choosing which day. I've planned to invite them over this weekends but at the same time, i received quite numerous of friends dat invited me to their open house so i changed my mind. I should be hosting another raya open house & the date is still unsure yet.

By next week, my uncle will be inviting us to his raya open house & again I hafto rearrange the day. I wanted it to be during weekends coz' I wanted my friends to stay over at my place til' midnite. I like having lots of companion and keeping them entertained the whole time they are at my place. Another postpone decision.. hmmm! Oh yeah, we started back to work yesterday & I was still in Raya Mood. I was not reli concentrating much doing my work coz' I was still tired. 2 of my colleagues are still on holiday and mine will starts on the 17th, YIPEEEEEEE! But on that day, i have planned what i should be doing 1st.

1st - I need to go to JPD, get my bluecard done & ROADTAX!
2nd - Renew my IC
3rd - Service my car (subject to budget, hehe)
4th - When everything s done, help out mom
5th - Rest, Rest, Rest, Rest!

HAHA! Yes i planned to rest.. what i meant, i wanted to take the leisure time waking up whenever i want, cleaning my shop, go to Nini's house & kidnap my lil' couzies (HAR HAR HAR, as if!) , probably go to the dentist etc. Lots too plan in so little time. EVerything is still under plan, not sure if i can accomplish it during my 4 days leave. Despite being tired, I went for dance class yesterday with my cousin fara & sis girl. We went for Hip Hop class & i enjoyed it. While most people were out for Raya, we instead went for dance class. HAHA! After dance class, we chill @ cafe somewhere in Qlap, i dun remember the name while waiting for Deelah. We went home around 10ish.

Today 07102008,

Lazy.. yes lazy.. i was too tired & very sleepy. How i wish i can go home just as i wish & back to sleep.. DREAM ON! I was very sleepy and too lazy to do my work. I'm very lazy lately and I dunno y. Alhamdulillah I finished my report !! I went for lunch at 1:30pm with G Saed, Danial, Alimah & Siti. Nuthin much reli happened @ work. It was quiet the whole afternoon and it made me feel even more sleepy. I went home ard 5ish & fallen to sleep. My sister woke me up & told me dat my parents are bringing us out for Raya. We managed to visit 5 houses just now & last destination was Abg Jidi's place. We stayed until' almost 1:30am. Al-Maklum MIB (Meeting Inda Beranti) LOL! I did mention dat I'm gonna post some pictures that i took during Raya but somehow im just too lazy to upload. I haven't reli got enuff time to post some pics coz' i was usually online late at nite. After i finished my story, i usually get very lazy to post pictures. No matter what, I will post the pictures taken during my Raya but not now coz' I'm alredi SLEEPY zzZzZZz!! Mebe when i have more time, I will post the pictures yeah? Sorry guys, i will post don't worry. Oh yes i'm still in Raya Mood & I'm gonna enjoy the most joyous festival of the year. Alrite then, im off to bed.

Syg, I MISS YOU! don't u? Sigh**

Raya again... YIPEEE!

2008-10-04T12:14:00.006+08:00

Yes i am very excited everytime when it comes to Raya. It is becoz' it is the only time i get to visit my relatives once a year. Yes its true "ONCE A YEAR" that is for my relatives from my dad's side. I don't regularly visit cousins staying in Tutong and I'm not very close with them. I get to visit them every once a year. Unlike my mom's siblings of corz, we get to meet quite often. Its another year I got the chance to celebrate Raya, Alhamdulillah... semoga panjang umur! I was reli happy when we were announced that our Raya will falls on Thursday 2nd Oct'08. We got to fast another day and I still got time to do some unfinished errands.

I slept reli late as late as 4am the nite before Raya and I skipped Sembahyang Raya.. my bad! Anyhoo, my brother woke me up around 10ish and we left home at around 12ish. First off, we went to NiNi's Madang house ( my mom's side ) and the couzies were alredi there except the 6999's family and 934's family. The 934's family just left coz' they still need to visit other relatives from the other sides. Again this year, we celebrated Raya without my beloved couzie Emma who is back in UK. But I hope she's all good back in UK and enjoy her Raya as we are in Brunei. Of corz, it feels different celebrating without the family but hopefully u feel as if u were home when you're there. We miss you a lot! First day, we didn't get to take a lot of pichas coz' we were somehow busy mingling with the couzies. Also, its been 3 years Raya, we celebrated our Raya w/out our Grandpa ( mom's side ) & NO! we didn't forget about him. Infact, we went to Kubur the next day with all the couzies, aunts & uncles. My first day Raya was not bad at all except that my eldest sister and Brother Akmal didnt get to Raya-ing with the family due to some reason. So yeah , we managed to visit few relatives in Tutong before we headed of to Nini Lumapas. Met the 934's family at Nini Lumapas and we ended the nite visiting back to Nini Madang's house to celebrate Syaza's B'day. It was one exhausted nite and we went home around 2ish. Managed to force myself to take shower before sleeping & i ended sleeping at around 4ish eventho' i complained that i was too tired and sleepie. INSOMNIA strikes me and dats the reason i can't sleep, fuluiiii!

Despite the tiring exhausted nite, I had another sleepless nite whereby I was awaken by my brother at around 8ish. Awal kalie ah......!! We woke up early coz' we promised to go to Kubur @ around 9ish. Everyone was already there wen we arrived. After Kubur, we went to Yayasan & Had our lunch while the guys went for Friday prayers. Arrived home at around 2ish and It was one quiet afternoon. Around 3ish, there were relatives from Limbang & Miri who visited us & I was too shy to go down to mingle with them. I don't know why! While waiting for them to leave, i fell asleep while watching TV. I was supposed to go to Saloon to get my hair done and I did after that. Took my shower when i reached then headed off to Ustaz Nasruni's house with the family. Then went straight to Muara & met up with the whole family eg. aunties, uncles & cousins. Visited the couzies from Muara & we took a lot of pictures. I'm gonna post a bit of the pictures taken during my second day of Raya. I had a reli exhausting nite, yet fun!

Im getting sleepy and its alredi 2ish am rite now.. ill just post the pix tomorrow then. To my couzie Emma, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin. Miss you babe! &...............

To all Muslims thru out the world, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin. Its not easy to apologize but since we are celebrating our most joyous Muslim's Hari Raya Festival, I would sincerely apologize from the bottom of my heart for all the wrongdoings that i intentionally or unintentionally did to anyone ( if there's any ) .

Have a wonderful Raya everyone!!!! Assalammualaikum.

Crushed!

2008-09-28T01:38:00.002+08:00

Yes, im crushed! I don't know what happened to my laptop. Suddenly the display is not as bright as usual. I don't know who used my laptop before this! ARGH!! I hate it when others tried to use my laptop and when any faulty happens, they just don't care. I can't blame any of my siblings coz' i'm not sure who was using it! I increased the brightness but still, sama jua! ESHHH! * fuhhhhh *

I am kinda pissed off but i can't do much. I'm gonna send to the shop for checking. Whenever this kind of problems occurred, no one cares but myself! I care too much about the things i bought so that i can use it for long term. Its so annoying seeing the laptop with blurry vision. Anyway, its pretty hectic @ work for the past few days. I haven't reli got the chance to reli call up my clients. I was mostly distracted by my colleagues especially Raja Bual. He had been cracking me up with his silly jokes and always came up to my table to gossip a bit. HAHAHA.. Just now, my colleagues and I had decorated our department and as usual, we are alwez the most excited department to participate in decorating the place. Our department is full of raya cards, neon lights, raya decorations and lots more. Despite being extremely busy, I managed to finish my work except the additional tasks given to me. I'm so caught up with a lot of things this month. Seriously man, my boss will be lecturing me again if he finds out I still have few work pending. I wish i could get all done but the fact is, i can't! I have so many things to do. Banci ku...

Apart from that, I managed to squeeze my time to go for my appointment. I went to Essensual's Saloon and got my hair colored. I'm loving it.. I didn't get the chance to break my fast coz' no one that i can asked to buy me foods. So, i starved myself til' 8pm! Imagine that....... i felt reli cold, sleepy and hungry at that moment. When i finished, I called up licia immediately and asked her to accompany me break my fast. I know i shud've break my fast during Maghrib prayers but I couldn't walk out from that Saloon with my hair all messy & covered. Mudahan jua inda batal.. sigh~ After that, i fetched her and i was craving for pizza at first but then we ended up eating @ Fun Wok Restaurant. The place is relaxing and the foods not so bad.

On our way back from Fun Wok Restaurant, I met someone who I thought I will never meet anytime soon but then, I JUST DID! I met that someone and I reli miss him. YAYEEEEEEEE! I can't believe it. I never met that someone anywhere but somehow I met that someone just now. As we drove off on the way to gadong, we went separate ways and once again, WE MET!!!!!!!!!!! I hope you guys know how excited I was went I met that someone. I was screaming excitingly and licia got annoyed. HAHAHA! I DON'T CARE!!!!!!! Ya ALLAH, seeee.... I'm so excited. I can't believe it. I know I sound overreacting but hey.. I'm sure you know how it feels seeing someone you never expect to be infront of you when you are missing that someone dearly! I miss him so much and its been few weeks without that someone and suddenly he just appeared infront of you when u least expect. I'm happy even just a glimpse of him and I managed to meet him not once, but TWICE! hahahaa..... ok i shud stop yea? I'm over-reacting, i know! I'm so hyper and I'm just so excited seeing that someone. So, i went somewhere else and managed to buy prezzie for my beloved lil couzies Syaza who will be turning 8 years old this 30th Sept 2008. I hope she will love her gift and I'm pretty confident that she will.

After that, met up with Abg Saed @ YMRM Batu Satu. He bought 4 kain cara melayu and we went straight to the tailor shop. Lucky him, the worker still willing to accept his Kain. However, I also persuaded the worker to get my Baju done by tomorrow which he will finish it 2morow. Syukur Alhamdulillah aku biasa. Lau org lain, nada ya sanggup lagi. Thats the beauty of being nice to someone and also being treated nice in return. I had been so friendly to them since their opening of the shop and stopped by and chit-chat for awhile before heading home. I went there to check out any new designs or simply just checking out how many baju they sew per day. Back to my excitement, I am still HAPPY and very much missing that someone. I'm getting tired and got errands to do tomorrow. InsyaALLAH, I hope i won't get into trouble when i get to work on Monday. InsyaALLAH, i will get my job done. I hope so! I know my boss will understand and one more thing, I'm still not in Raya Mood. We are just few days away til' Raya and I'm not reli excited about it tho'. It is because my work is still a LOT! Yes.. I'm more concern about my work than thinking about Raya. Just hope Raya this year will be more exciting than last year. *Yawning* I should be heading to bed rite now then.. I'm off to Miri tomorrow so gotta sleep since i will be the one driving the car! Yipeee.....

Sayang, I MISS YOU!

Emo Moments

2008-09-24T03:51:00.009+08:00

Its late and yes i cant sleep!!!! And yeah, the man of the house just came back from Japan today and i haven't got the chance to greet me daddy. I was sleeping just now when he reached home. I MISS HIM SO MUCH!! and thats probably the reason i can't sleep. Its payday today for most government servants. When i reached office in the morning, I saw quite a number of people alredi queuing to withdraw their salary. I was like... "what?! over eyh.. kraja kah nde.." Its true.. sometimes i think they just dun care much abt their work. All they think of is waiting til' end month to receive their salary & work as if they've been forced den again wait for the next salary and it goes on and on and on! I just don't understand why! Then when it comes to paying their debts, some have difficulties to do so and willing to postpone their payment to next month and that will create chaos of insufficient money to pay for their debts. OMG! I really hate those people who does not care abt their debts at all! ARGGH!! Yes people, my work is dealing with debt issues & it stresses me out monthly when i have difficulties to collect debts from them!

Enough with all that, I hope they remember to pay for their debts and I would not take Hari Raya Festive Season as an excuse for them to delay their payment. NA~AH!! I'm not buying it... btw, i went home at around 5ish and was in a rushed getting ready to go to the airport. My cousin emz is back to UK today and yes couzie, we miss u already!! I hope you have a nice long flight and be good ! Study for your own good & make yourself proud. She & her sisters has been my most closest cousins since we were kids! I LOVE THEM TO BITS!! Sungguh.... nggak tipu! Hehe.. After sending her off, my sister & I went to Serusop & The Mall just roaming around checking on stuffs on Sale. Nothing much... !! Again, I MISS HIM! *awwwww* I haven't got any plans yet tho.. I havent even got my Baju Raya ready... ADUH!!! =( why am i not ready for everything yet? Mebe i'm just not in the mood for Raya yet.. We are just a week before Raya.

I'm feeling so sad rite now. I miss PaNDaQu♥ . It has been a rocky relationship and that I just thought nothing much I can do to fix it again. I'm quite happy being just this way but sometimes i do miss him. I don't know whats going on. We had been talking abt this matter and that we haven't got into any ending. Its not that i don't ♥ him, its just that there are just some things that is better left untold. As what he told me, i should not be sad abt what happened & as i think thoroughly, i realized that he was right... I should be happy knowing that he loves me. I miss him right now and I do not why! *deepsigh* I want him here!! This is the moment where i hate myself for missing someone who i know will stood up for me for anything. But... there's nuthin i can do, i've made up my mind & yes, i still do ♥ him.

I still remember all those words you've told me & I miss all that.. i reli do but I can't go on with this relationship, Its just hurting us both. You know that too ryte. I'm happy that you've tried holding us back but i dont wana hurt you. I ♥ you. I'm missing you so much today. You will be fine.. i will be fine. We can stay the way we are. I miss you PaNDaQu!!!!! *sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Ok, im outta words.

Anyway, its my brother b'day today... a big shout out to my brother KOJEK

HAPPY BIRTHDAY. MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU WITH PROSPERITY AND GOOD HEALTH. NOW THAT YOU ARE OFFICIALLY 20 YEARS OLD, BE MORE WISER & INSYAALLAH MORE LUCKS COMING TOWARDS YOUR FUTURE. BE A GOOD BROTHER AND SON. WE LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE & WHO YOU ARE. I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU IN ANYTHING BEST THAT YOU WISH U CAN & STRIVE FOR SUCCESS! LOVE YOU SO MUCH... ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ONCE AGAIN, ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY!

PaNDaQu, I ♥ You. I Miss You syg♥

My Saturday!

2008-09-21T02:31:00.005+08:00

Basically my Saturday has been superlicious occupied & fun uhuh~ fun!! Well it started off by coming late to work due to overslept. I came at 8:36am & dat means... I was 6 mins late! Yeahhh... my bad. I will try to avoid coming to work late. Had a lot to do at work but i was not reli in the mood to get my work done which i should've finish it. I went home at around 2ish pm. Accompanied Abg Saed to the Mall for awhile. So, as i was saying on my previous post that i decided to have Sungkai with the colleagues and friends. Yes we did! Previously booked 30 pax but due to "Janji Kosong", only 21 pax came! That was only becoz' i collected the money earlier. Hehehe.. Luckily i managed to cancel the 9 pax so as to give others to book for Sungkai. We reached ILotus Restaurant at around 5ish. The seats arranged for us were not exactly what i've requested but wat to do, at least we had some place to sit. Met Siti Amalina, its been awhile babe.. lewkin gorgeous as ever. My other bestfriends could not make it for Sungkai except Kitty. Wish my girls could be there too.

Comments on the foods? Well, i give it a thumbs up for the Sungkai Buffet. And gez what? We were asked to pay extra charges for the left-over foods which costs us an extra B$21.00 Thanks to G Duan for being too "teseliur & kelaparan" LOL! Adakah patut.. Hahaha.. As usual after finished eating, we had our chit-chats and gossiping. After that, we headed off to Utama Bowling & I played 5 games. YIKES! It was fun fun fun~ We enjoyed it coz there were some funny scenes and most of all, we girls didn't score as high as the guys. Hahaha.. We were there at around 8ish & went home at 11ish. Hehehe.. I so wanna play again but this time, i wish my other bestfriends are available to come & enjoy the games. Eventho' we didn't know how to play but we just don't care as long as we had a great time..........!! The stress that has gotten into me was clearly flushed out from my mind !! I feel relieve... but I'll be stress again when I'm working. HAHA... its life.. wat to do~

I'm getting sleepy alredi and i think I miss him♥. I do not the reason behind for why should I miss him. I guess.. I like him much ♥♥♥. *Sigh* It breaks my heart knowing that the person we are missing do not know how we felt inside. I wish u knew... and to my ♥712, IMISSYOU! Banar... ((hugs))

Sungkai at ILotus Restaurant @ 20.09.2008

The Bowlers. Hahaha... I'm so loving the team!

-The End-

to be continued...
♥ I mish you syg!

170908 & 180908

2008-09-20T02:17:00.009+08:00

I was too busy for the last two days. Plus i was way too lazy to update my blog. I didn't have much to say and dats the reason i didn't update. I was not in the mood to update but due to some demand from friends, I was forced to update. Hehehe kidding guys.. It was a public holiday yesterday and that means i could have enuff rest the whole day. I woke up pretty late and wasn't doing anything at home. Stayed at home til' late afternoon & went out for awhile to buy some DVDs. I haven't even watch the DVDs that i bought. I usually bought a lot and ended up watching only one or two while the others i might probably watch after a month or when i get reli bored. Last Wednesday, i had Sungkai with my friends @ Kaka Restaurant. Frankly, the foods paid was worth my money. It only costs me B$6.90 and the foods were delicious. I'm not saying it becoz' the restaurant belongs to my aunty. Its a sincere compliment and I'm sure others would also agree with me. We didn't stay long after Sungkai just like we usually did becoz' some hafto leave for Terawih prayers. Since the next day is public holiday, i decided to stay a bit longer with some of my friends who were still there. Nothing much exciting happened tho but it was great to see some old friends who came and joined us.

Managed to take some photos while waiting for 'Baduk' (lapar ne kami.. hehehe)

People are queue-ing to take some foods (Duk Duk Duk BaDuk)

When i reached home, i was reli bored. I didnt have anything to do and no plans at all. So i texted licia and asked her if she would love to come with me and have Sahur at CheezBox. She agreed to accompany me and so i fetched her around 10ish. Met some familiar faces at CheezBox. As usual i ordered Pastry Soup & Ultimate Chocolate. It has alwez been my all-time favourite if dining at CheezBox. There were lotsa people dined in and the seats were fully occupied. We went home around midnite and yes i'm still craving for my fave appetizer, ULTIMATE CHOCOLATE!

I had this for Sahur. Delicioussssss................. YUMMY!

Anyways, I had Sahur laznite with my family, cousins, aunties & uncles. We had Sahur @ ILotus Restaurant and for sure....... i was reli full. I've alwez liked it there and it was my 2nd time @ ILotus. I know some might say i'm outdated coz' ILotus had been opened since 2002 is it? Well, i don't know. Yes, it was my 2nd time ever.. I've never been to ILotus since it was opened in which year, i dunno. It has become one of my frequent visit restaurant coz' they provided great and delicious seafoods and grilled foods. I'm not so fond eating Seafoods coz' i have bad allergy if i eat too much seafoods. So, i only consumed a bit of crabs and prawns. I love the steamboat.. Knowing that i will be working the next day, i didn't even bother much altho' i was reli tired after eating. We took a lot of pictures but its just too much time consuming uploading a lot of pictures. I came home around 2ish and i couldn't sleep becoz' i was too FULL. So, i took the time editting some pics and ended up sleeping around 4ish i think. I have been sleeping disorderly lately. Its not healthy i know but i just cant help it. Oh yeah, i will be having Sungkai tomorrow with my friends again @ ILotus Restaurant and perhaps bowling after that. Anyone wanna join? Hehe.. BRING IT ON! I'm getting sleepy alredi.. so i'll just leave u guys with some pics taken during our Sahur dined in @ ILotus.

Me ♥ Me Familia SO MUCH!!!!!!

♥ Families, can't live without em'.

♥ Families, will alwez be there to lend a helping hand.
♥ Families, will go thru thick & thin in lyfe.
♥ Love them to bits!

xxxxx

2008-09-16T01:18:00.005+08:00

I had Sahur last night and i fell to sleep soon afta that. I was waiting for Subuh prayers but then i didn't realize i've fallen immediately to sleep. I woke up just on time and that i went to work pretty early eventho' i didnt have enuff sleep. I was actually too lazy to wake up on a MONDAY blues. BORING~ I had Sungkai at KaKa Restaurant just now and the foods were delicious. My aunties, uncles and cousins were there. At 7:15pm, Tua had to attend Terawih prayers while us stayed and had a long chit-chat til almost 8:30pm. Licia and her sister came by & joined us.

It was almost 9pm so we left and sent the couzies home. Decided to stay for a bit since its been awhile since the last time we hung out at their place. We continued our stories and it dragged til' 11ish. HAHA! My cousin will be back next week and so we planned to play bowling before she goes back to UK. Raya will be in just less than 2 weeeks and guess what?! BAJU KU LUM SIAP! Matichiaaaaaaaaaa............... it doesnt matter! Payday will be as early as 23rd this month and I'm pretty sure every shopping malls will be packed eversince that day! Dad will be back soon i guess and I'm so missing him so much! Our payday will be on the 20th so its 5 days earlier than usual. YIPEEEE!

to be continued....

WE love, WE cherish, WE are FAMILY!

2008-09-14T02:03:00.007+08:00

Yes its true... we cherish, we love and we are just like FAMILY. I've been browsing the pics we took during our recent EXPO and i very much love the pichas! I love my colleagues, i love them very much just like a family. I can't imagine losing any of em. I feel so much love working at this company. I don't even wanna move to other place if i were to be offered higher paid unless everyone quit. I just dunno y i love talking abt my worklife. I guess im feeling the love at this company. They welcomed me with warm smiles from every departments, guide me with their knowledge, supports me with my work, helps me juggle with every complicated matters etc. Its all about the love that i received from this company. I remembered i was on leave for 2 days and when i came back to work, everyone was approaching me and telling me they miss me when i was not around.. awww.. tats so sweet! I would work with whole my heart just to stay in this company. ok enuff with all this drama.. hehehe.. kejiwa teplang me ane. *LOL*

Its weekend and i had Sungkai with my friends at Orchid Garden Hotel. The foods were superb and mouth-watering indeed. But too bad,i didnt manage to eat a lot since my stomach was aching. Then since i was already full after my 2nd trip of eating, i couldn't afford to go Terawih. My Bad.... oops! I was supposed to have Sungkai with them couzies and sisters but then i got other plans with my friends. So, i made my time for them. We went to Utama Bowling and played bowl. IT was fun since there's not much people around. I enjoyed my time with my cousins and would love to do it again sometimes. Since my cousins won't be long in Brunei, we took quite some of our times spent together. I haven't got any plans yet before they're back to UK and Singapore. We took a lot of pictures last night but i only managed to edit a few. Those pictures below were taken last night when we skipped our Terawih. WE usually went to Terawih together but everyone was still full from the Sungkai Buffet.

I had a wonderful time spending time with my cousins, sisters, auntie & bestfriend! I met Jessica there. She didn't stay long since she hafto catch a flight. It was nice seeing her and too bad she cudn't stay and play with us. We played 3 games and finished at around 10ish. After that, sent licia home and then home sweet home. I took the time to edit pictures since i cudnt sleep. As usual 2 more days til' my anniversary and I'm not thinking of celebrating it. I'm just not sure how i feel anymore and that I'm happy just like this. Yes people, I AM HAPPY! Unless he'll be there for me, i'll be even HAPPIER! Watever it is, i'll keep on moving. So yeah, these pictures below were taken during our escape from attending Terawih. Teehee....

Love the cousins so much!
Wish to be loved, not to be abandoned by you.
I hope u'll move on without my presence in your life.
I'm happy, i'm moving on, just like u said, you should be happy too.

My heart stops beating...

2008-09-11T00:25:00.002+08:00

Sleepy.... *yawning*

But somehow that won't stop me from updating my blog. Its been almost two weeks no news about him. The texted yesterday does not count and should i give up or just go with the flow? I'm not usually the type who give up easily but then, if there's no other choice probably I'll just end it all. FULLSTOP! *sabar*

Anyway, I came across this website showing the beauty of Venice and I SOOOOO want to go there. At least a EUROTRIP for me would be awesome. If only i can, i would love to take the opportunity to go for eurotrip. I've never experienced travelling alone... I would like to try but i'm scared. HAHA! I've made some plans on how i'm gonna use my annual leave but subject to changes. You know its pretty hard to apply for long annual leave at my workplace. When i'm on leave, all i think of is my work. I'm afraid i might missed out some important agenda. So, i shud planned to finish every delay work before submitting my application for annual leave. What do u think ? Eurotrip for next year if ders no hassle and mebe KL or Bangkok for this year annual leave. I haven't planned yet and I wouldn't want to waste my annual leave. SO much plan and so little time.

Time is limited and can't believe we are reaching towards end of 2008. Its just 3 mths til' new year and would not know what is going to happen for the upcoming 3 mths. I planned to buy new car next year but it depends on what car i'm going to choose. I got so many choices and i love it all. Tamak aku ah.. heheh.. And again, i have so many plans yet to decide. Oh, i've had my Sahur awhile ago. I planned to eat supper early so that i won't have to wake up at 3am later. I planned to go MIRI but not sure when. I need to ask my cousins or aunties if they would like to come too. The more, the merrier. Duncha think so? I know mom will be busy with her new restaurant towards the end. If she would love to come along, its much better. The problem is... I dun have any transport to go Miri. Our nissan is still in the workshop so we're left with only sedan cars at home. We preferred to use big cars so more people can be fitted in. ARGH! I need scalp treatment asap!! I am scratching my head almost everyday even after washing it everyday too. I have scalp problem i gez coz' i have dandruff problems lately. Gatal esh!

My brothers are stil out at this hour and I've been reminding them everyday not to go out until late. They just don't listen! I'm so frustrated rite now. My car has been sent to workshop and needs to be repaired. It cost a lot with just only two parts need to be changed and repaired. AIYOO! Nevermind about that as long as the car won't bring anymore trouble sound and more to be fixed. I'm asking for warranty so i won't be charge anymore if it happends to be the car does not properly repaired. Macam2 saja... I miss my bestfriends so much and its been forever since i last met them. We have not plan when to have Sungkai together but for sure the planned must go on. I'm so bored rite now.. i have no one to talk or chat with. My sister is alredi sleeping and the movies on TV is so boring! Apa ne...... I guess that tells me i shud just go to sleep then!

Assalammualaikum. Tee hee...

Rumours

2008-09-09T23:25:00.001+08:00

I woke up as usual today. I was lucky that i reached office at 8.29am. At least i'm not consider late. As usual, i switched on my radio and my pc then start duin my work. I called up my bestfriend today and she told me something i wished it was only rumours. It was something that made me feel unsure about my feelings. I'm not sure if i love him or its just that i feel lonely. I pretended to be happy but somehow i was hurt but then I'm not so sure. I'm not sure abt how i felt, i dunno if its true or just rumours. What concerned me the most is out of hundreds people working at his workplace, y does it hafto be him? Why does people hafto gossip something like "THAT" about him? OVERRRRR!

So, i took the courage and texted him asking if it was true or just rumours. He denied it and claimed that someone trying to destroy him. BUT why??! What does he have that can bring up such heartbreaking rumours? I was devastated & at the same time, i was shocked. I'm not sad well abit... but i didn't expect this thing could happened to him. I gez u all might wonder what actually happened to HIM. He's ok but there's some story about him broke my heart. But... if its true, i felt relieve and wished he's happy. Why would people want to jeopardize him? WEIRD! SO anyway, I just hope it is just rumours.

Ok, i came back from work at 4pm. I was not in the mood to finish my work. I fell to sleep when i arrived in my room. I was too tired i gez. Plus, it was really cosy lying on my bed. Heheh... When i woke up, i was surprised to see most of my cousins were here in my room. My mom's siblings and grandma had sungkai here at our place and had terawih together too. Its alwez lively when having them cousins around and they meant the world to me. My family is my everything. I had videocall with my dad and all my lil couzies were waving to him. Dad was smiling and kesian him.. I bet he misses us a lot. My lil couzies were very excited when they saw him on webcam. I can see the grin on father's face. He looked reli happy when he looked us on webcam. I miss him.. and INSYAALLAH, he'll be back on the 23rd. Mom decided to fly to Singapore on that day with the rest of the siblings and AS ALWEZ, i cant come along since its end month. Sigh. But still, im not sure if they jadi or not.

Feeling tired now and I'm outta words. I'm off to bed and sleep. Toodles!

Mom's 47th bday.

2008-09-09T00:06:00.003+08:00

I have been seriously affected by INSOMNIA. Did i spell it rite? correct me if im wrong. I shud be sleeping by now but im just not sleepy yet. Nothing much reli happened today. We had our Sungkai at grandma's with the rest of the cousins. It was mom's bday onda 7th. Surprised her after terawih and lucky the cousins were all there to celebrate. Double dozens of young lil couzies sang her a birthday song and they sound so cute. All of em were excited to see the cakes and they ushered to the kitchen just to sang mom a birthday song. Since it was on Sunday, I decided to go out with my cousins. The two sisters are now here in Brunei and so i took the opportunity to go out with the most beloved cousins of all. We went to THE MALL and went for a lil shopping spree. We went roaming around the Mall just looking around. IT was almost 5:30pm when we got tired and so we decided to go home due to we hafto go to granma's for Sungkai.

We went home at around 10ish. And today we came home from grandma's a bit early coz' mom was too tired. Baby Wanie tagged along and now she's sleeping with me. I miss Bapa a lot! Im getting sleepy and I havent even update my dad's blog. Hehehe.. Im off to bed.

4th day of Puasa.

2008-09-06T01:16:00.002+08:00

It has been the 4th day of Puasa. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly the past few days except for the first 2 days, i had difficulties with breathing and painful headache. But for now, Alhamdulillah.. except that i still have difficulties with breathing. Don't mind about that, i'll be fine. Today, i break my fast at my grandma's & its a great feelings having to gather with the rest of the family. Couzie farah will be back tomorrow, i meant today perhaps since this will be posted on the 6th Sept 08 coz its alredi past midnite. I so can't wait to have Sahur together with the couzies or Sungkai if possible. My schedules might be tight but somehow i can squeeze some time to spend quality times with friends or family.

After Sungkai, i was supposed to go for terawih prayers but instead i took the opportunity to survey some kain which i haven't even got for Raya. My bad... anyway, First off went to Firoz Jaya @ Serusop but none caught my eyes. So next i went to Silk Shoppe Boutique and guess who did i bump into?! The none other than the gorgeous fantabulous NISYA MJ. Looking as fab & gorgeous as alwez. She was with her mom & sister. *Wave to NISYA* It was nice bumping into you babe... its been awhile but seriously, im juz too caught up with work. I don't even have pleasure time with myself. TRUE! Hehehe..So yeah, i know ive been saying this quite a number of times but for sure someday, I would surely want to hangout with my friends due to the long overdues promises that i made that i reli wanted to spend some of my time just having fun.

Its just a day til' my mom's birthday countdown. She'll be 47 years old this year and may ALLAH bless her with everything she does. I love her with whole my heart and nothing can replace her at all. I hope she'll be happier as time goes by and i wish all the best in everything. I love you MOM! Even if u're not reading this but maybe someday, u might come across my page. Hehehe.. My eyes are still wide open and my lil sis is still busy re-organizing her stuffs and cleaning up her closet. I'm just not sleepy.. Oh yeah, i went shopping spree with my siblings juz now and damnnnnnn! I spent too much...!! HUSH.... I'm lewking forward for Sungkai gathering with my colleagues and I hope everything will turn out great as it was last year. I've got nuthin more to chat for now.. see yah!

ANYWAY... a big shout out to my friend....... AMAL ZANATULIZAN!

HAPPY BDAY BABE!!! ALL THE BEST WISHES TO YOU.... MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU WITH GOOD HEALTH, HAPPINESS & WEALTH! Enjoy your b'day................

Happy Ramadhan

2008-09-02T04:26:00.004+08:00

It took me 3 hrs to edit the templates. Feeling so tired rite now, just finished taking sahur. I was extremely busy during the expo and didn't have time to update my blog. When i got home, i was too tired to switch on my lappie just to check out my emails or update blog. Now that i have time, i took the opportunity to change the layout and update some stories. Stories about the expo, i reli enjoyed it eventho' it was extremely tiring. At the end of the day, we managed to take some pics and in group. The most tiring day was the last day of the expo. I was very tired due to the nonstop customers came up to me and made several enquiries regarding the promotion. I was very happy indeed to entertain them. It was an overwhelming achievements during the expo. We finished everything at around 10ish. Due to the achievements, we were given permission to be back at 4pm just now. I was still tired and so i fell asleep when i reached home.

Btw, WELCOME RAMADHAN!

Another month of the year where Muslims will be fasting for a month and happily celebrating Syawal after that. I would like to wish every MUSLIMS around the world a happy fasting! Its public holiday later since its gonna be the 1st day of puasa. I haven't make any several preparations yet during this fasting month. Dad won't be celebrating puasa with us this month coz' he is in Japan rite now duin some course and will only be back a week before Raya InsyaALLAH. We really miss him and we have difficulties contacting him via Telephone. And so, we emailed each other everyday just to update stories about whats going on. I miss him, they miss him, we miss him! This is the 2nd time we celebrate puasa without my dad. The 1st time was when he was in KL studying and this year is the 2nd time. I wish him well over there and all the best with his course. So yeah, i'm tired alredi. I better sign off now before i doze off. Its raining rite now... and I'm sleepie... *yawning* Gotta wait for Subuh prayers. Toodles!

Expo starts tomorrow....

2008-08-28T01:13:00.004+08:00

The event for our expo wil start tomorrow.. i hope it will more happening than last year. I was very busy indeed with all the tight schedule. I can't even spare a few mins of my time going back home and have a lil rest before goin back off to the office. As usual its the last week of the month. Busy with WORK WORK WORK! So yeah, i've been visiting our transit shed and the set-up finally finished. We even left the work early to clean up the storeyard. Everyone has been helpful including our boss itself. I have few pending work that i haven't even finish yet and I'm sure boss will be mad if we do not finish it before end of this month. I need to be flexible with time since I'll be very busy til end of this month starting tomorrow. I will be busy with work til' nite and would not be able to spend quality time with my family even on SUNDAY. I'll be working the whole day until night on Sunday.

My cousin Emma texted me up just now and offered to eat Sushi @ Escapade. I wuddddddddddd reli love to join since its a family thingy but unfortunately it was raining heavily and i was stucked in the office, no one was fetching me. I called my sister and told her i could not attend the dinner. SOrryyy couz... wrong timing bah ko atu.. heheh busy brabis ku.. lau inda ujan tadie datang ku plg tu.. i know ure reading my blog. Hehehe.. nanti ah.. puasa saja kalie. The heavy downpour made me so layzee to drive and go out. I just couldn't see clearly on the road and was driving reli seeelooooww... as slow as 40km/h. Seriously, i need my spec only during heavy downpour especially when i'm driving. I accompanied Ka Julie to the Mall to break her fast. We didn't stay long since we still hafto rush to the office but instead we dropped by at the storeyard to check out what has been done. FINALLY... its all done.. Alhamdulillah. So yeah, i came home around almost 10ish. I was reli tired... i managed to take my camera at licia. Met mom, bro, aunty jur & puput at the restaurant around 11ish and went home around 12ish.

I was thinking.... i was too much committed to work and i hardly even thinking about love. Was it because work revolve around my surroundings? Seriously man.. i hardly even thinking about it. Not even thinking of wanting to be serious with the relationship. Its not that i'm neglecting my relationship but its just that i'm just not feeling the love. I do miss him sometimes but.... i just dunno what has gone wrong between us. YESS its true i have reasons for being happy... I am happy with my life but something is missing in me and I could not figure what it is. I used to think i will be blogging more about my life but as i read thru again from my previous post, i was talking tooo much about my work. OMG! I need a life.. a life where i can spread my wings & enjoy every single moment of it. I love my job.. I reli do but sometimes all i need is fun, enjoy & relaxing. I miss hanging out with my cousins, my girls, my spice girls, my familia... my friends. I miss my LCB tutors too. I miss studying.. miss my friends back in aussie.. i miss everything abt my life. AND yes i am moving on and I am still happy with my life. Its getting late and i shud better be sleeping by now.. errr.. nite2 then. See you when i see u...!

Tiring day

2008-08-22T23:34:00.004+08:00

*Yawning* I'm sleepy.... but yet when i tried to sleep, my eyes just won't shut. I'm so tired i gez.. its been very busy this week and I didn't have enuff sleep. It has alwez been busy towards end of the month. I worked and stayed overtime for the past few days. Work has been kerayyyzeeee.... I came back from work around 8pm. It was raining heavily here at my place just now. I was too tired to go somewhere else. I was supposed to meet my mom at The Mall but i was too tired after work. Nothing much happened at work... the bosses has been very busy with the event coming up. My boss is busy with the preparations, the set-ups etc. while big boss is quite busy with his work. I guess the Sales Dept. is getting busy day by day due to the upcoming raya. And it has alwez been the most peak season of the year. Towards Ramadhan, im pretty sure some of em will be very exhausted and tired with the workloads. Not forgetting myself, i will be busy as well since I'm also involved in their work. I so need some rest........ The fact that I'm very tired rite now was probably because the lackiness of sleep. I slept pretty late laznite.

So yeh readers, any of you ever encounter the obsession of looking at yourself in the mirror? Well i used to stay long infront of the mirror fixing my hair and checking on my zits if there's any. But.... wat if it turns out to be the other way? Wat i meant is... being obsessed with yourself in the mirror and turned out to be acting strange and even talking to yourself most of the time with the mirror. Speaking of mirror, i watched this great movie entitled 'Mirror' laznite with my brother. It was one damn good scary movie.. It keeps me awake the whole time and it freaked me out couple of times. We watched the midnite show at Qlap Mall and it ended at 2am. WOAHH! When i reached home, i was too tired and wanted to go to sleep but i went to my brother's room to check on Wan and to my surprised, he was not there. I called him and he didn't answer my fone. It was alredi late and i was worried that he cudn't wake up early.

I was very disappointed coz' its been 5x this week he has been late to work. My superiors and I have been telling him quite a number of times advicing and telling him about the consequences with bad attendance. I don't know if he understands it or not. Why can't he just at least understand how much important is this job to him or mebe it is not important to him! I'm sick and tired of reminding him all the time about disciplinary acts. He just don't care i GUESS!!! I'm really disappointed and I didn't even wanna talk or look at him @ the office just now. How can he be so selfish??! He knows that most of us care for him and really wanted to see him change and determine to work hard for this job but sadly, he doesn't reli care much!!! ARGHH... So sad. I'm still disappointed with his attitude as if he doesn't appreciate our help. Enuff said about him.......... it really torn my heart apart for not caring how i felt towards my job. I love my job but does he care??? WHATEVER!!!!!! I'm dozing off now.. toodles.